Craig went biking with Michael, Hesee,her two sons and their Japanese student exchange who is here for three weeks. He wanted a bike ride in the Rocky Mountains Craig’ s the perfect one to take them, he invited me to go but I didn’t feel up to it I need to save my energy for girls camp this week. Saydee and Aubrey started they’re acting class for the week they left about 830 this morning. Shar and Trisha are staying for the entire week Shannon might be coming up on Thursday for raspberry weekend. I have girls camp this week Tuesday through Thursday so we’ll have lots of fun things to do this week. Shar has felt overwhelmed redoing their front yard and she’s behind on her laundry so she brought all her laundry up to finish washing since I have two washers and dryers. I’m enjoying reading a book that I started last week to distract me from my unsettled feelings “pillar of fire.” It starts in 600 BC at the time father Lehi and his family are living in Jerusalem before they come to America. The author has done a very good job in describing what it would be like in this time period . Fun to picture his description. I am really enjoying learning historical facts about what it was like living in Jerusalem in 600 BC. Goes right along with my book of Mormon reading right now as well. Craig plans on tearing the last A-frame down this week while MIchael is here maybe the little boys can help him as well it will be a good chore for them this week. We all have lots to do this week and try to enjoy the beautiful summer weather we are having, it is much cooler up here than in the valley makes summer a lot more pleasant. I know that I have been restless and I usually get this away this time of the summer from all the activity with the family, I get tired, just need to hang in there a few more weeks and things will slow down.
Monday, July 30, 2018
Sabbath Day
Craig was in charge of the last hour of church this week with it being a fifth Sunday, the bishopric is always in charge of the lesson he is speaking about the importance of managing our finances and our lives. He has been preparing all week long. I had Alec and Kate still here they didn’t leave till about close to 11 am, they had a nice visit got them on the road, invited Michael to come go to church but he wasn’t getting out of bed, I went without him. I was so proud of my husband he did such an awesome job teaching.everyone left feeling uplifted and motivated to do better important to save our money. That has been one thing my husband has been very good about and we are able to live comfortable in our senior years because of his Savings. Send it it was a busy day. Came home for a short time to fix dinner for the Lundgren family met Hesee at 2 PM to take dinner to them, I visited with Hesee for about an hour in the car she is a talker. My Vistung sister Sherri Taylor came by for a visit and Then I had meet the Bishop at the church with Aly and her mother at 5:30pm. Aly was up set and we were able to visit about her feelings and work smooth things over. I think she is going to be a great Laurel President, I then had my Young women presdiceny meeting for two hour and home. Sunday has been a very busy day. Still my my church clothes at 8:30 pm just crawled in bed to rest and Burbidge family arrived and soon after the Noriega family for the week. Saydee & Aubrey are talking an acting class at the pickleville theater. That’s going to be fun for them the week and at the end of the week they perform on Friday morning for us. I hav whirls camp this tuesday thru Thursday. It is going to be a busy week for us all.
Saturday, July 28, 2018
My Micheal Boy
Michael and I had a great talk up to the lake. We talked all the way up. He is a confused young man right now and is not working again. He gets a job and then he quits, he hate the mindless repetitive jobs, which I get, but he has got to find something he likes for now and stick at it to earn some money, he needs someone to take an instersest In him and give him some guidance, it is not coming from his parents. It is so frustrating he is my special grandson and he needs help!! I’ve got to see what I can do to help him and get him in a better path in this life, he dosent have a testimony, which I know it has had not be norshied over the years and now trying to figure out what he wants in life is very challenging for him. Pray for the insight in knowing how to help him. He needs some male role models so badly to reach out to him and give him some direction, we are trying as grandparents. It is very difficult being so far away now, glad he came up to spend some time with us.
House Hunting
Trisha and I found three homes in the South Jordan area that we marked as a possibility. I haven’t looked in south Jordan so I thought I would give it try. I woke up early Friday morning and decided to drive to Salt lake for the day. I packed my bag just in case I slept over. The day flew by. I drive by the three home, I liked the first one the best. It couldn’t get inside. There was no sign outside even though I could see someone inside don’t no what that was all about they would not answer the door. I didnt It get a good feeling as I drive around South Jordan, it is all so congested driving on the roads and so unfamiliar. I really don’t want to change locations after living in the Dealer Sandy area for 40 years it is really hard to change. I just got a sick feeling inside. I found myself driving back up to Draper in our old neighbor. There is a home in steeple chase, it is empty right now and need work and another one built several years later in the next subdivision. I favored the one I. Steeple chase the most. It is just such a pretty neighbor. Selling for $750 but need work. I don’t know if I want to live in that ward again. I just know I do want to live on the east close to the mountains. It is so much pettier than in the west side of the Valley and this is where we have lived our entire marriage. It is so frustrating for me. I still love our old home and felt I gave it up to soon, I fought Craig on it for years not leaving yet. He was relentless the last few years after complaining about the taxes, so I gave in even though I knew it was going to be had to replace for the same value, it is going to cost more for less with the cost of home going up. We did make money on the home. So Inhave to look at it it’s not a loss. It’s just finding some else and that is really hard that fits our needs for the season we are in now. I just feel homelss when it town. I stopped by Tasha’s home for a very short visit. It is just really hard to stay for long with the kids all running round, my nerves could handle it. I had to meet Chad in Lehi to pick up a check for his life insurance and left about 4pm to get ahead of the Friday afternoon tracific. From there I drive out to Shannon’s home. Alec said they were coming up this week well when Inhot there I could see that was not going to be happening, them out of the house is a challenge. They were no where near backed or putting effort in leaving it was 6pm a d we need needed to get back on the road. I don’t like driving at night if I can help it. I invited any of the boys to come up with me. Micheal packed his bag and drove up with me last night. Shannon said Landon had several missionary discussions and is ready to baptised they were asking for dates August 11 or the 17th. I told Shannon to check with her sisters and see what is best we are fine with both dates. So exciting to get the grandson baptized. Michaels stopped by Panda Express for dinner and bought a few grocers in Evanston, it felt good to just get out and drive yesterday and just shopping at the the gorecery store I hadn’t been shopping for over a month. It did me good to get out for the day. We arrived back to the cabin about 11:30 pm and everyone was in bed asleep. Criag and I visited for a bit and I soon fell fat asleep. House hunting is depressing, it is not fun. I don’t know where we are going to end up just know I want to be on the East if the Valley it is much more peaceful for me living in the city. The tragic is crazy busy and things have grown just since we move to Bear lake almost two years now hard to believe. Time will tell!
House Hunting
Trisha and I found three homes in the South Jordan area that we marked as a possibility. I haven’t looked in south Jordan so I thought I would give it try. I woke up early Friday morning and decided to drive to Salt lake for the day. I packed my bag just in case I slept over. The day flew by. I drive by the three home, I liked the first one the best. It couldn’t get inside. There was no sign outside even though I could see someone inside don’t no what that was all about they would not answer the door. I didnt It get a good feeling as I drive around South Jordan, it is all so congested driving on the roads and so unfamiliar. I really don’t want to change locations after living in the Dealer Sandy area for 40 years it is really hard to change. I just got a sick feeling inside. I found myself driving back up to Draper in our old neighbor. There is a home in steeple chase, it is empty right now and need work and another one built several years later in the next subdivision. I favored the one I. Steeple chase the most. It is just such a pretty neighbor. Selling for $750 but need work. I don’t know if I want to live in that ward again. I just know I do want to live on the east close to the mountains. It is so much pettier than in the west side of the Valley and this is where we have lived our entire marriage. It is so frustrating for me. I still love our old home and felt I gave it up to soon, I fought Craig on it for years not leaving yet. He was relentless the last few years after complaining about the taxes, so I gave in even though I knew it was going to be had to replace for the same value, it is going to cost more for less with the cost of home going up. We did make money on the home. So Inhave to look at it it’s not a loss. It’s just finding some else and that is really hard that fits our needs for the season we are in now. I just feel homelss when it town. I stopped by Tasha’s home for a very short visit. It is just really hard to stay for long with the kids all running round, my nerves could handle it. I had to meet Chad in Lehi to pick up a check for his life insurance and left about 4pm to get ahead of the Friday afternoon tracific. From there I drive out to Shannon’s home. Alec said they were coming up this week well when Inhot there I could see that was not going to be happening, them out of the house is a challenge. They were no where near backed or putting effort in leaving it was 6pm a d we need needed to get back on the road. I don’t like driving at night if I can help it. I invited any of the boys to come up with me. Micheal packed his bag and drove up with me last night. Shannon said Landon had several missionary discussions and is ready to baptised they were asking for dates August 11 or the 17th. I told Shannon to check with her sisters and see what is best we are fine with both dates. So exciting to get the grandson baptized. Michaels stopped by Panda Express for dinner and bought a few grocers in Evanston, it felt good to just get out and drive yesterday and just shopping at the the gorecery store I hadn’t been shopping for over a month. It did me good to get out for the day. We arrived back to the cabin about 11:30 pm and everyone was in bed asleep. Criag and I visited for a bit and I soon fell fat asleep. House hunting is depressing, it is not fun. I don’t know where we are going to end up just know I want to be on the East if the Valley it is much more peaceful for me living in the city. The tragic is crazy busy and things have grown just since we move to Bear lake almost two years now hard to believe. Time will tell!
Thursday, July 26, 2018
Thursday
This has been a nice day with my family. I went for a boat ride and enjoyed watching the grandkids. Alec arrived with his girlfriend staying for a few days. We all went to eat at Cafe Sabor the Thursday dinner special our favorite. I started reading a good book. I needed something to distract my mixed emotions about living here, Trisha and I looked for homes for sale last night and found a few to look at in south Jordan. I’m so ready to be back in a home in the valley. This is our vacation home and it doesn’t feel like that when I’m here all the time. I really miss being closer to the grandkids and visiting at pockets of time. The weeks at a time at the lake get to long for me and I need a break and have no where to go. I have wanted to go to Salt but Stacy has been staying at Tasha’s house so I have no where to stay. Our extra bedroom at her home is taken. Just talked to Stacy and they are all sick again. Along with Tasha’s kids. So they are not coming back up to the cabin, I told her we don’t want to get sick again either. We seem to get what the grandkids have if we are around them, it is not fun to be sick in the summer. I was just getting over a summer cold on the 4th of July and did not feel well enough to do much. I didn’t even decorate which is not like me. It had just been an emotional and physical struggle for me this summer. The weather had been great. I should just be enjoying my time here, it is just hard because I’m just burned out. We have done this for 41 years coming to the lake all summer and boating at lake Powell, it is a lot of work and I’m just tired. The joy is not there for me, I try to gut it up for the sake of the family unity. I know by the end of any summer I’m done!! Living here ful time has not made it any easier. I have still have a hard time maintaining what needs to be done with all ththis family here 24/ 7. It is a challenge! Just hang in there I did have a good day today.
Wednesday, July 25, 2018
Stacy
Just got off the phone talking with Stacy for over an hour had to tell her about all the drama going on. We then talked about her having a breast augmentation next week on Wednesday, August 1. I told her that I have girls camp the 31st thru the 2nd of August so I won’t be able to be there to help her. I would be more than willing to If I didn’t have girls camp. It would be the perfect scenario Tasha and Bridger will be out of town all next week,they are going to California with the Thomas family. Stacy is still not feeling well from her illness, She just got back from a week at Lake Powell and I know she is extremely tired, she told me Chad is sick now & is going to the InstaCare today, trying to get on an anabiotic. I told her she needs to be feeling well in order to have the surgery and Chad needs to be there to help her she shouldn’t be worried about taking care of her kids for at least for five days. So I don’t know what they’re going to do. I don’t know the perfect time when she has small kids, it’s always a challenge. She said they might come up this weekend and I told her to go visit with Shannon and see if she can get them to come up to the lake with them for a few days as well. We will have a cabin full all next week. Alec just text me and said he is coming up tomorrow with his girlfriend. Burbidge family are staying all this week and next week. Noriega family are coming up Sunday night for the week.
24th of July
We had a quiet 24th of July this year. The Burbidge family were the only ones here. Craig wanted to finish moving the few things we had left to the storage shed. We just about have it all moved over, Flint helped Craig move all the heavey stuff on Monday. Burbidge’s were surprised we had it alll move over, they thought they would be helping us get it moved. Craig doesn’t sit still, he got it done, I was worried about putting it all in a storage unit, but feel it is going to be ok, we don’t have a lot left , I don’t want to get rid of everything we’ve collected our entire 40 yrs of marriage. I am very sentimental over the few things we have left. I was hoping to have a nice 24th of July and just enjoy my family for the day. Boston and I were watching the days of 47 parade on TV and seeing all the fun Floats that were displayed, Boston is such a cute grandson enjoyed spending time with him sitting in my bed with me watching the parade and eating pretzels. Craig wanted to take our last little bit over to the storage unit I got dressed and ready to head over when I received a text from my oldest Laurel Jesalyn. It was a very unkind text to me, I was in shock and burst into tears. I am so done with this young women’s calling in these petty girls. They have been very challenging for me. Since March I have really been struggling emotionally dealing with the challenges that have been before me. I’m already feeling unsettled and unhappy here and then I have to deal with their unkindness towards me when all I’ve tried to do is be kind and loving to these young women. I just started crying saying I am so done I just want to be released I do not deserve being treated this way. Craig read the text and was quite surprised she would be so unkind to me in her text. Well the joy for my day went right out the door!!! All I could do was cry!!! Craig was upset too and felt like he needed to call the bishop and let him know what was going on. The Bishop asked that I forward the text to him. This is the text: .... I heard you telling ieshia it would be weird for her to come because she's not in the ward that is NOT how our religion is and I can't believe you telling her mother that! That is RUDE and unchristlike I've never had a yw leader do something like this all of mine have always been welcoming to everyone weather or not it would be weird I personally don't wanna go and be the oldest one their cause it's gonna be weird for me and now that you did this I just I've lost respect for you no YW leader dose this no matter what we've always been welcoming to others that is how I've been raised no matter what and clearly you aren't welcoming because you telling Ieshias mother that it would be weird is something a bratty teenager would do not our Heavenly Father I don't mean this text to be rude but I also am just disappointed ! I was literally in shock when I read this text where was this coming from., I had not even takled to Ieshia or her mother. I forward the text to Cindi Caldwell, Ieshia’s mom, she was quite surprised too!! Her response to me.... ??? What is going on? I then said to my self calm down. Pat my camp director was telling me that she was going to have the girls act out some unkind things at camp to get a point across to the other girls how hurtful it can be when they are unkind to one another. So I forward the text back to Pat saying is this a joke-? the beginning of being unkind to one another as part of camp ? Well come to find out it’s not a joke Jesalyn was upset that Ieshia was not coming to camp and I got thrown under the bus. Cindi, ieshia’s mom did say she thought it was weird that Thstvher daughter come to our camp since she’s not in our ward. So I guess Ieshia must’ve conveyed that to Jesalyn saying it was me that said she was not welcome and it was a weird. Later that evening Jesalyn sent an apology text to me she overreacted, just mad that Ieshia is not coming to camp. I do have to say I was extremely hurt by her unkind words as a young women’s president when I’m trying to do the best I can. I am already feeling like the girls havev ganged up on me and now adding one more thing on the list. I told Craig I just want to go home!!! And I don’t know where that is? I am really tired of dealing with the drama these young teens can cause. I did not sign up for this job!! -Bishop did come over later in the evening to visit with Craig and I, and Pat - my camp director. With all said and done just have to be kind and loving and patient with these hormonal teenagers. I’m learning that I have to be very very careful in what I say in confidence to anyone these young women, over hear anything they take it all out of context and blow it up!! I was already struggling this week with things that Rose shared with me, my 1st Counselor, she told me about why Aly Wallentine was made at me and didn’t like me, I was filling the coldness from her, she has been a tough girl to get to warm up to me. She’s been mad because at Christmas time I change the Christmas tree that they had decorated for the ward Christmas party when all I did was add Christmas ribbon to the tree and she’s been pouting about that? She’s been giving me the cold shoulder ever since December that has been 6 months. Then in March I had a big blowup with Sierra, Jenny England an adult Chewed me out verbally in front of my Laurel NeNe at the Bear Trapper, was very embarrassing and Unjustly attacked. I then have had to deal with Darleen Petersen who has been flat out rude and cold to me and Craig for several months. She would show in her eyes a glare of total disdain towards me, I would say something to her and she would just walk off and not even reply. So the drama continues. I’ve got to emotionally toughen up and gear up for girls camp next week.
Trying to keep it Together
I’m already an emotional mess!! Trying to keep it together!! The Burbidge family ended up coming back up late Monday night they get home and are bored being in their small apartment so The kids wanted to come back up for the week. I know it’s really hard on Trisha not being in her own home, living in that small condo is very confining for her and the kids. They feel like they can breathe up here and have a yard to play in and enjoy the beautiful lake. I didn’t go to our game night on Monday night, my stomach was still upset, I’m sure a lot of it is just been my emotions, I just stayed in bed and Craig to the game night without me, I didn’t feel like being around anybody. Having the Burbidge family show up did cheer me up!! I watched a few episodes of Anne with E. Boston enjoyed watching it with me. He invited me to say family prayers with him, he said such a darling prayer cheered my heart ❤️
Monday, July 23, 2018
Monday
I woke up first thing this morning thinking, can I go home now? I’m so done. I’m having a really hard time emotionally. I feel so tore up inside. I really don’t want to live here fulltime anymore and I don’t see that changing with Criag. He’s fine, it appears. I just feel trapped right now. When things do quite down I feel the unsettled feelings setting in. Psyically I know I’m slowing down and it is tiring caring for this place let alone another home. I guess I need to look for something with out much yard. I don’t know how I’m going to stay here another year! Trying to not freak out !! Emotionally I just want to go back asleep right now to deal with it. Craig took us to breakfast we had yummy crepes at the cute crepe shop in town. We took a ride up the Canyon in the Corvett. The cool breeze felt good. Home now and just want to crawl back in bed. Dosent look like any of the kids are coming up for the 24th of July holiday with it on a Tuesday. Trying to get the Chaudhry family up but they said not until the weekend and that’s if they really come up. Enjoy the quite, but thats when it gets really hard for me emotionally. I need to be busy doing something so I can’t feel the struggle I’m feeling inside. Craig got Flint to help him load up our heavy furniture in the lower garage to take to our storage unit. I dislike having to keep moving our things around and putting it all in storage. I miss all the pretty things I had collected all boxed up. I know I can’t take it with me, but would like to enjoy while I’m still here instead of sitting in a storage unit. Ever time we move it, things get broken. We have so very little left now, if I kissed this life good bye the kids won’t have much to go thru now. I’m not feeling well today I have a terrible sick lump in my stomach. I woke up with a headache took some excedrin for my head ache and it is making me feel nauseous. I’m sure this didn’t help my emotions, just trying to keep it toegether and not start 😢 crying.
Quite Weekend
It was a quite weekend for us. We didn’t have any family here this weekend. But it was very busy in town, people everywhere, we had over 1200 at church this Sunday, we only hosted two sacrament meeting this week. Craig I spent Saturday working all day outside. I finished washing the lower windows. We took another load to the storage unit. We only have the Heavy stuff left now. Craig did get our trailer back this weekend. We just need someone to help us lift it all. Peterson had our trailer 4 months. Finally they returned it. Criag wasn’t real happy about it how it was returned. They dented the front and side, the trailer, it has been leaking somewhere on the roof and caused roof damage. Craig is careful in taking care of what he has. It is frustraing when other don’t care for things like you do. They didn’t even say anything. It had been nice to rest from all the family. We had a nice quite Sunday. I rested most of the day after my church meetings. Started watching a new series on Netflicks call Anne with an E. I have enjoyed watching it. Criag not so much it is more a Chick Flick series. It from the book Anne of Green Gables that I Ioved.
Thursday, July 19, 2018
Trying to Be upbeat
First thing this morning Craig is out moving things around again. He started loading things up in the small trailer that we have to take to our storage unit that I still need to sort through and repack all of our things, I need to consolidate it. I wasn’t feeling up to it yesterday, first thing this morning he’s out moving our docking around and it’s so heavy I can’t help him. Buck was not real thrilled about helping either, he’s moved it from the south side of the house to the north side and now he wants to move it back to the south side again, it is so stinking Heavy. He’s already complaining about his back hurting and I just can’t help him lift it I wished I could,just trying to be patient with him. I know we need to move it, we need to tear down the A-frame and get that area of the yard cleaned up. I just get tired of moving stuff around constantly rearranging the lower garage and drives me crazy moveing our stuff around and then we have to repack it up for the boat and then we spread it out angin. Be glad to just get things in place for now it is a process. It is is up setting moving our belinging around when I just want it be in another house not storing it!
My worst pedicure
The opening of a new pedicure shop here in Garden City at the new project by Cody’s restaurant, so I thought I would try it out. It look like a fun place. I’ve needed some of the comforts of city life around me, so excited they were now open. It is pricie but they give a 25% discount for locals which meant it would be not more than $10 what I would spend in Draper. It felt good to relax. She did painfully awkward massaging my feet and legs, their wax paraffin was a plastic bag over my feet it didn’t even feel like anything was it. She did not file the dry skin off my feet which I was hoping for. It took her for ever to paint my toe nails. She did not get the old paint polish off either. They looked lumpy and messy when she was done. I was in shock this was the best she had to offer ending up costing about $56. I was already missing the comforts of our formal home hoping this would help appease me, I wanted to cry when I left. I have just had enough of Garden City. I need break from it all here. This use to be our vacation home now Inhave nowhere to go. I stoped got a Coke on the way home and talked to Shannon on th phone for an hour. I wanted to go see her but I have had not had the energy to even drive down. I came home and looked on my computer again for homes in the valley. That is an over whelming Job in itself looking for another home. Nothing feels right or it just cost so much. I felt over wheelmen and just shut down for the night, it was not dark yet only about 8:30 pm, I just went to bed. I slept all night. I just feel a cloud hanging over me.
Wednesday, July 18, 2018
Feeling discouraged
On our way up to the caves Aly Wallentine my only 16-year-old rode up with me. She is so hard to have a conversation with I just don’t know how to open her up when she rides in the car with me she doesn’t talk to me at all I just feel like we are not connecting it is a little discouraging to me working with these older girls I have for laurels this next year and three of them are not active at all they can do if you activities Aly is my only active on and I feel like we are not connecting. She was just called to be our Laurel president and seems to be anxious about getting involved yet she was so quiet in the car and distant towards me I know she really likes Rose and she seems to react with her very well. When I got home from the cave activity I was just feeling discouraged I don’t know alarming cloud hanging over me for some reason. I find myself missing having a home when I pulled up in the driveway I came in my room I wanted to start looking at homes that are for sale in the Draper Sandy area on my computer I spent the evening going through my emails that I have not liked it from us two months and weeding them out and looking for what is for sale in the area. everything is very expensive and is overwhelming finding another home. I stayed up late working on my computer I was almost 1 o’clock in the morning before finally fell asleep. I didn’t sleep very well though I tossed &! turn feeling quite disturbed inside. I just feel so torn. For some reason I find myself not liking living here. I yearn to move back to the Salt Lake Valley. This morning I woke up feeling a little discouraged and overwhelmed us our life. I just need to chipper up I know we have so many blessings. It feels good to get out and tinker in the yard a little bit and enjoy cool morning air it has put me in a better frame of mind. I know I think about getting another home yet it is still challenging keeping up with all the responsibilities for summer home in the summer here at the lake. I think I just so much family here being nonstop it has wore me out and I’m just tired. I need to take time to rejuvenate myself so that I can find the joy in life again. I feel like I am getting older and slowing down my body hurts my ankle hurts my foot hurts and I feel extremely tired I ran out of energy all too fast so that does a factor in my emotions. I sometimes find myself wondering if I’m too old to be a young women’s president I have to work at finding the joy lately in this responsibility. Just be patient!! Take it one day at a time. I know there are several things that we want to get done here at the lake and it’s better to be living here in order to get it down we want to finish our landscaping and our driveway I sure hope we can get it done this year I’m tired of looking at it like it is. I really dislike the little rocks in the dirt driveway, it gets tracked in the house ourccars get so dirty all to fast. Craig made friends with the owner of the car wash up here, thank goodness cause he’s able to keep our cars washed and clean which is a challenge I get dirty so fast. He woke up early this morning and drove his Corvette down to get in a car wash and now he’s heading back to help do some repairs at the car wash. Craig has been helping him maintain things there and for repayment we have a storage unit that we can store our stuff at a discounted rate at $60 a month is a really nice storage only consider a big part in it and probably most of our storage stuff we need to it’s just getting it all moved over there. Have to say I am so proud of my husband Sunday he gave such a beautiful blessing to our little behind it was just called to be the secretary Janie Wallentine and I’m so proud of him sitting up on the stand presiding in the bishopric for our sacrament meetings he is doing a great job in this calling,many people love him in the service that you gives in this community. It’s part of life there are the ups and downs and we have had a blessed year as I have reflected back over many blessings. I just don’t know if I want to stay a whole lot longer at the Lake full time, I’m starting to feel very unsettled and mixed emotional about it all. It’s not that I am really unhappy I am just having a battle for some reason inside can’t really put my finger on. The people are different here, very laid-back. It has been a shock to my system adjusting. Guess I’ll see how I feel come fall I do want to keep my eyes open for a place in the Salt Lake Valley. I just feel like I want to go home and I’m not sure where that the home is?
Minnetonka Cave
Are use activity this week is going to the Minnetonka cave at 4 PM. I have tried to rest today and not be so active I wanted to save my energy available to go with them. My foot and ankle is really aching today and it’s a little difficult to walk so I’ve been trying to elevate my feet as much as I can. Buck was asking me questions about the prophet Isaiah and reading the book alarm and last week which got me interested in searching in the Book of Mormon. I got out some on my book Mormon study books and have enjoyed studying the book of Mormon the last few days one verse at a time there’s so much to learn I have been immersing myself in the scriptures that Saturday. So this gave me time to rest my feet and I studied the Scriptures. Craig and I went over to our storage unit and organize a few things that they moved last week when the Peterson’s help haul it over it’s not much but it will be OK storing things over there will finally get it all moved over and organized once we get our trailer back!!! We did have a great activity with the years we had a great attendance about 25 of us. Aly Wallentine was my only Laurel that attended. She was really annoyed with all the younger boys that were 13 and 14 they were noisy and obnoxious I have to say boys will be boys!!! I saw Matthew take a handful of rocks and throw them in the restroom I had to tell him that was not appropriate behavior and that he was going to clean it up I got a brain and a dustpan from the manager and have him sweep the bathroom out not know what possessed him to do that. They all did enjoy the cave tour it was fascinating
Burbidge Family Back
Trisha & her family arrive late Monday night about 12:30 AM. Saydee brought up two of her friends that she made while they were living in St. George last summer & Fall. They are cute girls, they are all getting so big and mature looking, I can’t believe Saydee is 15 1/2,years old and driving, she has her learners permit!! We are entering a new phase of our teenagers. Alec had texted us wanting to bring up three of his friends and his girlfriend this weekend too. I told Craig that I just didn’t feel up to entertaining anymore family. I have been so exhausted after Stacy left. I’ve needed a few days to recuperate and regain my strength and zest for life again, I’m really worn down right now. Not sure that I am up to having grandkids bring a girlfriend yet I don’t like the idea of having to be the chaperone and worrying about them Shannon and Ryan need to be here with all that going on. We told them to wait to next week and hopefully their parents can come up. The Burbidge family are going to enjoy the lake till about Thursday this week it is a beautiful sunny day!!
Saturday, July 14, 2018
Keeping Our Covenants
Brittany my 2nd counselor is teaches our theme lesson tomorrow and has asked me to share my feelings about keeping coveanants in my life and share an experience. I Love the thought - our covenants guide our choices in life’s journey and help us resist temptation.
The energize bunny
My husband just keeps going and going and going like the energizer bunny commercial his battery doesn’t seem to run out. I am so tired today all I wanted to do asleep I got Craig out the door this morning about 930 I slept for a few hours I clean for a couple hours I crawled back in bed at noon and slept till 330 and I’m still tired. Craig drove to Salt Lake, visiting the grandkids and now he’s heading back he called me and wanted to know if we could go to dinner with the Brower’s at 6:30 tonight I can’t believe he’s not war out. It’s a 2 1/2 hour drive his feet going to Salt Lake one way so he has spent six hours driving today. He went shopping at Walmart for two birthday presents for the girls, visited both of them, made a few errands, got his haircut and now he’s heading back and we are going to dinner. I’ve got to get myself cleaned up. I need to color my hair, I’m way over due. So I guess I better get beautifying myself!! It has felt good to sleep some and have some peace and quiet today!!
Ashtyn’s 2nd Birthday
Ashtyn’s birthday was June 27th. We were not able to make it down to see her on her birthday, so Craig bought her a present too, a little baby doll, she loves it, was so cute, Shannon sent me a darling video clip when she open the present her grandpa gave her, Craig is very thoughtful, He made the rounds today seeing our two baby girls.
Our Annie’s 4th Birthday
Criag went shopping and picked out this doll for Annie. Craig woke up this morning and said he was going to drive to Salt for Annie’s birthday. I told him physically I could not make the trip I’m so exhausted all I want to do is sleep I need a day to myself to rest and regroup from all of our family. So he went with out me. I felt bad not going but I just did not have the energy!! Tasha was hosting a party in her back yard with 30 little friend’s Annie age !! Wow! Stacy was starting there for a few days before she goes to Lake Powell next week. We didn’t have a room to sleep in and I just needed a break from all the family. Happy Birthday our Annie Girl !!
Annie & Farrah best cousins, they are only 3 months apart.
Stacy Left for Salt Lake
Stacy and her little family have been here for 10 days. She is not feeling the best, but a little better since she got on an antibiotic on Wednesday evening. She has been really ill. Bless her heart ❤️ she has her hands full with these four little kids. I have been watching them nonstop since Sunday- 6 days. It has been a lot of work for me and I’m exhausted. When she left yesterday about 4:pm I wanted to just go to bed. The missionaries stopped by about then and were looking for a place for the new mission president and his family to sleep for the night. I told them they could stay here for the night we have plenty of room with our family all gone. I waved good by to the kids and started cleaning up. Trisha left the up stairs clean. I started washing the sheets in the lower level where Stacy and her family stayed. I was hurrying to get things done. By 6pm I could hardly move, I was so tired!! My ankle killing me and I just hurt all over. I had to lay down and rest, luckily the mission president texted back and said their plans had changed and they would not be coming. I was so so grateful, I didn't feel I could handle any more company. I just quite for the night. I got in the hot tub to relax and went to bed!!!
Wednesday, July 11, 2018
Moving our storage
We have been wanting to move our things out of the lower garage into our storage unit. Peterson’s have had our large enclosed trailer since March. Craig finally told them we needed our trailor. I guess they are returning it today, he shows up with a black trailer of his. They’re not going to fit very much in it, I can’t even emotionally deal with this right now, it’s so upsetting to me, I’m trying to help Stacy with her kids. The last thing I wanted to deal with today,moving our belongings. Enzo has cried & cried he won’t take his afternoon nap, my leg is killing me Stacy is at the doctor right now and I’m just beat emotionally, this is really upsetting to me, the last thing I needed to be dealing with today with everything else that’s going on, I’m doing everything I can to keep the tears back from flowing. Bishop Peterson showed up with his daughter Alisa and they’re helping lift our heavy stuff I just can’t even believe it!! I am mad and wanting to cry at the same time!!!
Wednesday Day 4
Stacy & Chad came back a day earlier from their Yellowstone trip. STACY is very sick, look like the bug I had two weeks ago. Except I think they got it before they arrived. Yael was. It feeling well. It is a bad bug, body aches, nasal congestion and just not feeling well I’ve been driving for over two weeks now. Cici tried to go to that InstaCare of Paradise morning but they told her she had to come back at 3:40 PM today so she’s just trying to hang in there she has a really bad ache. I’m watching the kids the best I can it’s hard when she’s around because they want their mommy I managed to get them fed for breakfast, we watched a movie, things tidied up. it will be lunch time soon, time to start all over in the kitchen. The Burbidge family took Yael and Jude out boating. It’s almost time for Enzos afternoon nap hallelujah. Farrah is watching Barbie movies. I get so tired of standing in going up and down the stairs it wears me out my left foot is still killing me it looks like I have planter Faseitis. Is very painful have a hard time walking and he told me have to put pressure on my foot standing in the beginning of movement. My legs are aching right now so I’m sitting down taking a rest, trying to hang in there and do the best I can to help Stacy with her kids. It is a hot summer day I’ve had to turn the air conditioning on in the cabin in the high 90s!! I’m getting really tired of all of our company this time of year is really hard to endure at times. I told Craig last night joking, can we just go to a hotel now? We’re both really tired. Poor STACY seems to get sick a lot and I know we didn’t even get to see them at Christmas or family was also sick now they’re here for their summer vacation and they’re sick again I’m sure it’s very frustrating for her. She planned to go to Toshas house for a few days leaving tomorrow but now that she’s sick I’m sure she’s not going anywhere until she feels better. Got to get her feeling better they have their Towner houseboat trip leaving Sunday night for an entire week. Trisha and her family are planning on leaving sometime tomorrow. Then have Cole and Dave coming out for a few days boating with the priest from their ward. Next week will be nice to have a little break from all of our family. Craig is wanting to move our heavy stuff into our storage unit he’s been working on it but today’s not the best day for me to have to deal with it trying to help Stacy with her kids. Yesterday I was so irritable I did get a good nights sleep better than the night before Monday was exhausting. I just feel like I want to go home I’m tired of staying at the lake and we don’t have anywhere to go now, this is our only home. I’ve lost the joy in my young woman calling and I just seem to be overwhelmed with everything and I really shouldn’t be. I know looking back my health has not been good since last year I’ve had so many kidney infections and just hang in there. I am getting tired of living at the lake I miss a lot of things about our lives in the Salt Lake Valley. I have been struggling for months just trying to be patient with it all. It seems to creep all my mixed emotions when I get sick. I just wanna go home. Where that is I don’t Know?
Tuesday, July 10, 2018
Monday baby sitting
Sunday night Farrah wanted me to sleep with her, I was wore out by the end of the night. I slept with Farrah. I didn’t sleep the best. The kids have been really good, Yael is sick and just lays around. I have to watch baby Enzo constantly. He is into everything. Today has been an exhausting day for me. By bed time I fell sleep fast and didn’t move once I fell in bed. It did fell good to get a good night of sleep in my own bed. Stacy & Chad got home about 12:30 am. I heard them come in and that was all I remember till morning Chad had to leave for work on Tuesday so I have tried to help with the kids. Another exhausting day.!
Baby Sitting Stacy’s Kids
Stacy & Chad left Sunday morning about 10:30 am to go to Yellowstone for a few days so I am babysitting the their 4 kids. I got up early for Ward to get ready for council meeting at 7:30am. Craig met an hour earlier, Sunday is a busy day for us. We have to sacrament meetings this week with so many visitors in town for the 4th of July week. I went to Sacrament and then came home to take my shift baby sitting the grandkids. Trisha & Buck left Boston. They are coming up later today. Let the fun begin!! Hope I can hold up to it all, I’m still not feeling well. My foot is killing me and it hurts walking. Carrying Baby Enzo is hard on me, my back hursts too! I’m no spring Chiicken!!
Saturday, July 7, 2018
Family leaving
Trisha and her girls left Thursday morning with with Alec & Jaxon. Once the cousins start leaving the Chaudhry cousins leave too. Micheal and Landon packed up and headed out Thursday afternoon. Things quited down a bit. It is still very chaotic with 8 grandkids running around under the age of 8. Stacy & her little family, Natasha and her kids, Buck and Boston. We had a fun day boating on Friday. It is a beautiful day of sunshine. Chad had to go to Salt lake for some meetings, left late Thursday evening and back last night. Tasha packed up and left this morning. Buck & Boston are leaving today too. With Buck as a Bishop now he has to be back for church in his ward on Sunday. Everyone coming and going! Its hard to keep up with all their schedules. We are down to the Towner family for the day. A little one on one time with the Towner grandkids. Stacy & Chad are planning on going to Yellowstone for a few day and letting us baby sit their kids. It will be nice once they leave I can really take charge of the kids and interact with them. Stacy is very hands on,she has a hard time letting me help her. Trisha and her girls are coming back up tomorrow for the week. They had to go down to pick up Karlee’s friend coming in town from St George. They are heading back up to lake. It is suppose to be in the 90’s this entire week here at the lake. It is going to be a great summer week at the lake. Hot!! Hot! In Salt lake. Wish I have felt better while they are all here, fighting a bug that has really knocked me down. Friday was a better Day for me. I did go boating with them all. Lincoln & Boston got up on the wake board for the first time this year. They have earned their wake board trophy.
Monday, July 2, 2018
Watching My Diet/ 4th of July
The day before the fourth was a cool day at the lake, it rained half the day so we didn’t do much boating. I spent the day trying to rest I’m still not feeling the best a darn summer cold!! The Towner family arrived late last night about 10:30pm -Tasha and her family got here last night too, we have a cabin full today. I spent about four hours cleaning the basement up before the Towner family arrived, it was messy from all the big kids, had to move Michael out of the Towner room and consolidated their things, they were all spread out in the basement for themselves the last few days. Hard to believe it’s the Fourth of July already. I woke up at 7 AM this morning even though I didn’t crawl in the bed until like 1 AM. The Towner grandkids were up at the crack of dawn 7am- Excited for the day. I have spent the morning fixing breakfast and tidying up after everyone. It’s already noon and I’m beat I’ve got to sit down and rest for a little bit. I’m still not feeling good at all I ache all over and my foot is killing me. Craig just took the Towner family and the Thomas family out boating it is going to be a beautiful day in the 80s.
They did have a great day boating later that night Chad gave us a great firework show and the kids played with their glow sticks I got for them all. I wished I have felt better this year. I have been staying in my room, I have not felt well. It comes in waves. I didn’t feel well enough to even decorate for the 4th this year, Trisha fixed us all a yummy 4th of July dinner and yummy 4th of July jello 🎂 cake. It has been a very nice day for everyone, all the cousins had a great time!!
Monday Morning
Sarah Sally Bails Born in the early 1800s
Burbidge Family Arrived
Bishop Meeting
1. Build trust 2. Be what you want them to be. Teach How to follow the savior. 3. Set Clear expectation, 4. Let them lead. Let them share testimony, help them to gain a testimony of the Savior Jesus Christ.
Love them 💕 invite them to act!!
I know we need to do better in getting our youth to fulfill their responsibilities in their callings, hope to get a Laurel president called this week so we can get our presidency up and running. I have Aly Wallentine submitted as the new Laural president, Out of my four Laurel she is my only active member. I pray for the insight that I need to know how to help these girls gain a testimony. Jesalyn Banham is my oldest Young woman she will be a senior this year she goes to school at Logan and drives back-and-forth to Logan every day she does come to activities randomly and a few times on Sunday but very sparse. I did meet with her in Logan last week and had lunch with her. She is working for her father for the summer at their family business in Logan I have met both of their parents and they are very nice just not active at all, her mother was very active at one time I feel impressed I need to meet with them both and see if her mother will support her in her personal progress. See what we can do to finish up this year. I have only one more year to work with her.
Jordan Erickson is a junior this year and her family is not active at all her parents are divorced and many weekends she goes to spend time with her father in Soda Springs which makes it difficult for her to attend church on Sunday, she has attended only a few activities this year now that she works at the hometown restaurant for the summer I have met with her mother and her younger sister Jerrika several times just visiting and getting to know them ,Jordan it’s hard to catch at home she doesn’t have the parent support which is very challenging.
NeNe my Spanish girl will come to activities and the church randomly on Sundays her family struggles with activity she has a very sweet heart she is struggling in attending her church meetings on Sundays. I had her teach Spanish cooking class a couple months ago and it was a great activity for all the young woman when she became a Laurel but since then I haven’t had much support from her, she was called to be our miamaid president and did not take it seriously so it was very challenging to plan and get things done. I need to look for ways I can help motivate her right now she’s doing homeschooling she is trying to get her grades up so she can move up a grade level. I will try to meet with her and her mom to see what we can do to help her along with her personal progress. Aly is my newest Laurel, She is my only active one and has parent support. she is very responsible and I hope that she will take the calling as women’s president more seriously, pray that I can help teach her how to be a leader. She is very active in her sports at school and it does make it harder for her to attend activities on Tuesday nights so I will see what I have to work with this coming year. I pray for the insight and the direction I need for each of these young women this coming year and I want to help strengthen their testimonies.