Study time

Nephi urged his brothers not to murmur against their father (1 Nephi 17:49). How does murmuring affect our families? How can we overcome the practice of backbiting and speaking against family members?   This is something my mother needs to learn not to do, it has caused contention and heartache in our family.  It had ripped it apart, her critical words to her children over the years.   I enjoyed church yesterday and learning about Nephi and his family traveling to the promised land.   In learning about Nephi & his family life, it was very challenging he had his two older brothers and brother-in-law's try to murder him, I guess things are not as bad and in my family, at least none of my siblings have tried to murder me. The thing I learned is that wickedness does bring great heart ache and there were many times that Nephi's brothers became rebellious and hateful towards one another they had temporary insanity!! They would be brought back to repentance and feel sorry for their actions it seems to be a repeated cycle over and over.  Each time Nephi would forgive them and praise the Lord for his many blessings, he continue on with his life.  His example gives me encouragement with my own family trials.  My mother has definitely been a challenge in my lifetime.

Reading the Scriptures

The only thing giving me perspective this week is to read in the scriptures. It has given me peace and comfort from the stress of my mother.  The Scriptures is what keeps me grounded.  I have felt so discouraged this week and just feeling  like giving up, like why do I keep trying in so many areas, I can tell negative influences working on me so strongly.  We are studying the book of Mormon this year and I really want to stick at it. I got out my study books," Treasures from the Book of Mormon" written by Cleon Skousen, they are so enlightening and helping me to learn more about the book Mormon.  Nephi had his brothers try to murder him on for different occasions,  Family life is challenging,  Nephi had to separate himself from his older brothers for his own safety.  I need to do this to with mother to protect my emotional health.  It is in the Lords hands.  He will take care of her. She is not going to allow me to help her or have a healthy relationship with her.   I'm letting go for now.  I have enjoyed reading and learning about the Prophet Joseph Smith, that translates the Book of Mormon for us to have in our day.  I know the book is the word of God and so grateful to have in my life the knowledge I receive from reading this book of God.  

The Emotional Pain Of My Mother

It Took all my concentration and energy to stay focused at the temple Wednesday night and to keep myself from bursting into tears. I've just felt like giving up, the only thing that keeps me going is I have this internal perspective that we are an eternal family and for some reason I was given her to be my mother.  I'm so tired of the repeated cycle over and over and obviously I'm allowing it. This week had been a hard week emotionally with my mother.  I have felt a heavy cloud of discouragement.  She is so self centered and very hurtful and mean with her words.  She cuts to the very center of my heart.  My entire life has been a challenge with her harsh words of anger.  Keep praying that she will learn she can't continue to treat her family this way and expect us to love her.  When she acts this way I want to shut her out and run as far from her as I can get.  This week I asked my self why can't I divorce my mother?

She has been married four times.  It has been something she has done when she can no longer deal with the pain of her relationship.  She walks away.  Cut them out of her life.  Why can't I do this myself?  I want to get as far from her as I can.  This is her last text to me this week that has been very hurtful.   

Yes all my feelings are coming out today I haft to get it out of my system it's killing me to see our family end this way but I can't stand by and have you kill me this way so there is no money left to give you kids and thank God for that I was hoping to leave all of you quite a bit but it would all came from Quention because John and I never had that much and it's long gone on all the kids so what Quention and I had was worked hard for I slaved on the ranch for 20 yrs . And I'm sorrow I lost the way I did but it happened but no matter what you think it did not go to Allan . But it's gone and if that's your anger I'm sorrow for you but to tell you the truth I'm glad it's gone because the truth come out . Michelle said I blew her inhertance, well she has more then got hers.  I've spent a fortune on her long time ago was even giving to her when John was alive and he told me to never do that .  And John Wesley drained me for years so what good did it do so I've made lots mistakes John don't even talk to me that's the pay back . I don't care what you all say I've been good to all you kids you just don't remember all the stuff you all have said about me???? 

Tommy is the only one that's ever respected me but now he has other forces on his side and he has  another family now that Richelle and the boys like better then me and that's ok I'll just drop out of the picture and let them be happy 

But I'm drawing up my Will  and because Tommy had helped me from the time he was a little boy if there is anything left it will go to him and I'm stating the house here is his home when it's sold it belongs to him none of it will go to me . So this will not be a shock to any of you and Tommy has power of attorney for me all those years that's how John and I wanted it to be and I still do want it that way. He has a level head and has never made me feel less as a mother . And I respect that of him .   I'm hating all this has happened  and our family is all torn apart but I guess it was already torn apart my boys don't speak And Michelle is living with John unmarried that breaks my heart but I've not judged her or ever said a word and have opened my arms to John and accepted  him just like it is and as for Jake I've been a great grandmother to him from the time he was small he came to stay with me in the summer, it makes me sad he has turned against me but what's done is done . I'm sad I wanted to still visit you and your grandchildren because I love all of them but that will never happen now .. 

I'll have a future now so you will no Kenneth and I both feel there is no need to Wait so he asked me to marry him and told me to set the date at our age why wait we don't have much time left to do the things we like to do , he is helping a guy that has cancer right now but only until April when he has to harvest his wheat but we don't want to wait so he will be back here and we are going to go ahead a get married . So

I'll be making him power of attorney and after he dies Tommy will still be the power of attorney.   I'm letting you know so this will not be a shock to you. 

Kenneth is s very dedicated members of the church and I respect him for that and he is lonely just like I am and we just want a little happiness as adults our days of raising children is over and we both want an adult life and I'm A country person I love the country  so I'll be happy

The hurtful thing is I have tried to love her and help her.  I only have had a power of Attornery this past year to help her with her bills. She forgets that a year and a half ago she had an emotional breakdown because of this Internet scammer Alan Williams, she financially reached rock bottom when I got to Texas she only had $50 to her name in her checking account she had no money left she's givin the rest to Tommy as purchased towards the house Tommy owns but Tommy never signed the real estate contract so she doesn't legally own the house yet.  Long story short had she had the money she would've given the rest of it away to the Internet love scammers so we're glad that that little bit of it is still in the house and Tommy will pay her at the sell of the home.  I have just tried to help her clean up the mess that she's made she's obviously not been responsible for her financial responsibilities for the past three years.  Over 80,000 in credit card debt and she doesn't have the money to pay it she doesn't own a home and she has a car payment $700 a month. three years ago she had a nice little nest egg and everything was paid for, so she is definitely made some bad choices.  And she gets involved in this Internet love scam that's been going on for three years and she will not let it go. so finally as power of attorney she leaves me no choice in trying to help her,  I've had to do the tough things and that's to take the data off her cell phone and close her Gmail account which I know she was not going to like. I hated having to do this to her but something has got to be done.  I talk to the FBI and that's what they told me to do.  We have been trying to reason with her to give up this Internet love scam it's taking her nowhere but down a dead end street and is not ending well. we have tried to reason with her, all of her kids and she will not listen to any of us. it has been so difficult this past year and she just keeps on lying to me. I was so upset with her last December she was supposed to get a settlement of $7000 for some property from Oklahoma she told me that the guy never paid her and she lied for months about it saying that she was going to have to foreclose on the guy because he never paid the final payments. Come to find out the check was mailed to her at Christmas time and she cashed it and spent every bit of the $7000. Apparently she had given it to this Alan guy or one of the Internet scammers and the money just keeps going out the window. She gets angry and then blames us kids for all her problems. she attacks like a tiger.  The most hurtful is how she treats the rest of us kids.  Tommy is the golden child and she gives everything to Tommy.  No doubt Tommy and his family has taken advantage of her all these years and have actually expected her to do for them financially. there are no boundaries in the relationship, what is hers is there's.  I'm not going to win the battle, I've had to step out of the picture.   John Wesley a couple years ago just said he has had enough and he walked away from her, he basically divorced her, he does not want her to be a part of his life at all and she doesn't get it.  Her last texts said that she is changing her Will, that Tommy would receive all of her inheritance which is very sad when she has three other children that she keeps beating up emotionally and pushing us away, I just don't understand her.  I am her oldest child and her blood related child, Tommy is her adopted child and youngest and there's no blood relation whatsoever and she treats her three older blood related children as if we are the stepchildren, it is the strangest thing.  My mother is a very narcissistic personality everything is about her, whatever she's upset about she takes it out on her children. I'm so tired of the repeated cycle over and over obviously I'm allowing it.  I just want to be happy and have a healthy relationship with her, she makes it so hard there is always a storm when you're around her about something and she will be so mean and cruel by the words that she says. It's never the truth it's always a twisted perception.  This last week I feel so discouraged, this family affair is a fairy tale.  I had a terrible father that deserted me as a little girl. A stepfather that sexually abused me for many many years and my mother that did not protect me from any of that, she emotionally has abused me over and over and over.  I have felt like just giving up on our relationship as mother and daughter. I keep trying because I have the eternal perspective that we are an eternal family in heaven and that she is the mother heavenly father gave me, so I keep trying to make things work but it just seems unbearable this week.  Her hurtful attacking words are so hard to deal with and she always messes things up and makes everything about her, she never acknowledges my feelings, what I'm going through.   I really do feel that my mother has a mental illness. I've tried to be sympathetic in knowing that she's not capable in someways and Ive just prayed for the patients that I need to help her.  Since I was a little girl I feel like I have been responsible for my mother I am my mother's mother trying to do the right things when she is emotionally out-of-control. The problem is she's very stubborn and will not allow any input from me. I just walk away.  If I do try, things get ugly.  She just becomes even more mean and attacking you're not going to tell her what to do!! when I was 17 years of age things were so bad with her, I had a father sexually abusing us kids, she put us back in the home with him she was an emotional wreck. I had no choice but to leave and live with an LDS family in Utah in order for me to survive myself.  I was so glad to get married and to create my own little family, a family of peace and kindness. I did not want to have all this turbulence in my own life.  I felt I have accomplish this.  The only storms that have been so unbearable are the ones that she brings and she keeps coming in and out of my life bringing me so much unhappiness by her unkind words, I don't even live by her and she can be so destructive to my emotional well being.  I can't do it anymore !!!! I'm just so done and so tired of it all.  It's in your hands Lord,  I give her to you, it is just unbearable, I don't know what to do anymore.  My heart is so broken and so sad inside this week. Wednesday I wanted to just break down and sob,  but I knew I couldn't go there, I had to work at the Draper Temple and I needed to be strong to perform my duties.  

Cold Snowy Day

Today is a very cold snowy day.  Winter is getting long this year.  We have had lots of snow.   Today is going to be a long winter Saturday.  Won't be going out until the snow storm lifts.  Craig and Michael were going snowmobiling today,  but looks like the weather has changed that plan.  Micheal slept over.  Craig said he is going to take him to the gym this morning.  Tasha needs me to baby sit while she goes on a photo shoot. That will consume half my day.  I need to pin her down later today to color my hair.  The Gray is popping out.  I need to color my hair every four weeks now.    

Today is Saydee's birthday

We called Saydee today to wish her happy birthday, she has turned the big 13!!   We now have another teenager in the family our oldest granddaughter,  She is such a sweet and beautiful young lady, we are so proud of her. She went to Bear Lake with us this last weekend with Aubrey and we had a great time.  I enjoyed spending time with her and Aubrey.   Sadie says the most beautiful prayers, I'm so touched by the spirituality she shares with us, she has a desire to go on a mission and I'm sure she will, it's going to be fun to watch her in her teen years.  Girl power!!

Dr. Orem Appointment

I have an appointment today.  I have a mole on my back, doesn't look very good, has changed this last year so Dr. Orem did a biopsy on it today.  So it will be sore for a few days. I was able to go and get my workout in this morning before my appointment.  Feels good to have a good workout in.  I came home and got cleaned up for the day, I work at the temple tonight.

Mother is Still giving Us Heart Ache

I have been watching mothers Gmail account that she has set up that she has been hiding from us, she has been communicating 24 seven with the Internet scammers supposedly Allen is back in Paris and she think she's going to fly and meet him in Paris in February.  I went online this morning and she has changed her password so I can no longer see her communication.  I called Tommy to let him know what she had done.  We are both at our wits end and in not knowing what to do with her other than what's called tough love.  I called AT&T phone company to have her Internet permanently shut off on her phone.  I have to go to the corporate office here in Sandy today to show them my power of attorney to get that officially changed and stopped.  I also called the Texas Cell Net to have the Internet removed completely from the house.  It is no more being nice because she will not stop communicating with the scammers it's gone on for way too long.  It's really scary because she could just give them all her checking account information at this point and could lose all of her pension and Social Security.  We might have to go about the route of having her mentally declared incompetent.  This will not be a fun process.  I told Tommy that he needs to get her passport from her

Yael Towner's 3rd Birthday

Grandma Debbie & Yael

Yael giving Papa Symes a hug

Yael is now three years old, the years are going by so quickly.  Stacy had a birthday party at the Towner family last night.  It was fun to go over and visit with all of their family, they have a bunch of grandkids now!!   Our Yael is such a sweet boy.  He talks so good for his age. I love to listen to him.

Hugs from Yael

Sacrament

The month of January is flying by.  Feels so good to be in sacrament this week,

I missed last week.  Craig went to mesquite for Alec's soccer tournament & the Thomas family went to St George for the weekend.  It was so nice to be home and have peace and quite. This past week has gone by so quickly.  Feels good to renew my baptism covenants to follow the savior in my daily life.  A return missionary spoke about the importance of attending the temple, the Lord strengthens us as we keep our covenants.  We have to press forward to do our part in living the gospel fully in order to withstand the evil influences against the adversary.  Sister Lexi Walker just sang the most beautiful selection of "How Great Thou Art".    She has a beautiful voice.    

    Jason Kilgore- our high council speaker  

Talked about Standing strong against the adversary.  He shared how strings wrapped around our hands can bind us with sin and become hard to change if We we don't repent. " What matters most last the longest ". Come to the temple for strength.    

Need to take the grandson to the Temple , temple attendance makes me happier and stronger to stand against the adversary.  Temple brings peace and comfort in our lives.  Bringing blessing to those we serve. Pray we can get the Chaudhry family to the temple.  "Temple attendance will smooth out our ruts in life." 

Bear Lake For Some Winter Fun

Sadie called and wanted to come to the cabin this weekend for her birthday!!  She invited Aubrey to come with her, so we arrived at the cabin Thursday evening with Sadie and Aubrey for a couple of days to enjoy the winter snow. We have quite a bit of snow at Bear Lake this year, more than we've had the last couple years.  I still have the brace on my arm but I'm going to try to snowmobile today.  Craig is anxious to get out and have a good snowmobile ride with all the new snow this year.  We've had to buy new helmets & snow clothes because all of it got stolen out of our trailer!!  We have had bad luck with theft in our neighborhood. Our trailer was stolen a couple years ago and now all of our snowmobile gear was stolen!!  We have  insurance with a $2000 deductible, so we figured that most of the equipment that was stolen was probably about that much, so we will just have to pay for it, to replace what we need.  Craig found a really nice helmet on KSL.com and just picked it up yesterday morning, he's trying it out this weekend, it has a heater in the shield so he's excited about that.  I'm going to brave the winter snow today and see how I do snowmobiling with my hurt arm.

Craig, Aubrey & Saydee

Hey losing weight

This morning I weighed in, I have dropped down to 146.4.  I'm so excited !!  I wanted to get down to 145lbs by the end  of Jan.  Going to make my goal.!!  I have not weighed this since 2011.  It feels so nice to look and feel skinnier.  I've lost 30 lbs since last Jan 2015.  I want to lose another 10lbs.  

Stacy Norwax Party

Tuesday I had a good workout.  I had to come home and clean up for the day.  I had to wash my hair again.  I just had Tasha blow dry it for me on Monday,  I got dripping wet hair after shopping, the weather was a very wet day.  I had to start all over on my hair.  I manage to do my own hair today for the first time since I fractured my arm.  It has been 4 weeks.  The doctor said another three more weeks with my wrist brace.  I was slow doing my hair but manage by myself.  Didn't have much down time until it was time to attend Stacy's party.  She had a great turn out.  All 5 of the Towner sister in laws, Anita ,our family Shar, Shan, Tasha.  We all love the cleaning clothes and had to buy the new products.  Stacy earn some great products for such a great party!  It was fun to visit with everyone.  We love the Towner family.   

Aubreys 12th Birthday

Monday Aubrey was out of school.  I meet her and Shar for lunch and then we went shopping.  I bought Aubrey a darling new outfit.  We had fun shopping.    

I bought me some new clothes too with birthday money my sweetie gave me. Fun to get some new clothes.  I loved shopping at the Ross at the Mall by Shars home.  They had a big selection of winter clothes marked down, had fun trying on all my new clothes

when I got home.   Sharlena had a fun party for Aubrey on Wednesday with her friends.  She bought each girl a fun pillow .

My Mother Went Home

Mom left today to go home, she has been sick almost the entire time.  She originally scheduled her ticket to leave on the 27th of January.  With her being sick most of the time, she just wanted to go home, she wants her own bed which I don't blame her, when you're sick you want to be home in your own bed.  She was crying last night, so I called the airlines and was able to get her a ticket today leaving at 3:47pm.  We barely had time to get her cleaned up and packed in time to get her to the airport.  It was a crazy morning.  Tasha left at 12 Noon I had to get Lincoln to school,  Tasha had a  meeting from 1 to 4pm and asked me to baby sit for her.  Her photo shoot was today so I had to take the kids with me to the airport. Trisha came and went with me which was nice, she was able to stay in the car with the kids while I got mom checked in for her flight. Shannon came to the house to help pack her.  It was a crazy morning getting her things gathered up at the last minute.   Huge sigh of relief to get her home!!   It has been very stressful for me.   I prayed each day to have love for her in my heart and be patient with her.   She is very demanding and needs lots of care.  I just have not had it to give, my plate has been full.  Winter is a hard time to come visit.  She loved being here for Christmas and had a great time.  Once Christmas was over she got sick, it was cold and snowy here and she was not happy.  I told her January is always hard for me to get thru.  I don't like the cold much any more either.  It feels nice to be relieved of the stress of having my mother here.

Hard-Working Day

I woke up at about 4:35 AM this morning, I stayed up all day, it's 10:30pm and I'm just crawling in bed. I spent the entire day tearing down all the Christmas decorations and putting them away, it has been a big job that I stuck to it and got it all done.   It feels so nice to have the house nice and clean,  I'm dead tired & need a good nights rest.   Feels sooo good to have things clean and tidy!!

Mother's Sick

My mother has been really sick all week. she started feeling bad just before New Year's and has continually got worse. We started her on an antibiotic on Monday afternoon, Thursday she started feeling a little better and we were able to go shopping for a little bit and get a few groceries at Walmart, things that she needed. Yesterday we stayed home and did some housework. With my fractured arm it's been really hard to do anything, I was finally able to get my sheets changed & my bedroom clean yesterday, it felt so good to have it clean and tidy for the day, now need to clean the house, taking all the Christmas stuff down it's going to be a real chore today.  I can hear mom coughing really bad this morning so I hope that she's not had a relapse. Feel bad that she has been sick since she's been here through the holidays, she has about three more weeks left so I hope she gets to feeling better.

Saturday

I woke up early this morning about 5 AM and couldn't sleep so I got up and tinkered on the Internet a little bit looking at houses that are for sale online in the draper area.  I spent several hours yesterday looking as well.  Craig & I have talked about putting our house up for sale.  I really wanted to stay in Draper.  I have really like it here.  With Tasha and Bridger looking at auction homes, I've been watching with them as well. We have got to find them a home soon. They are going on four months living with us now,  it's taking a toll on our home, it's really hard to keep things as neat and tidy as we would like. There is just nothing in the area that I really want to buy that doesn't cost more than our own home.  Want to spend less, not more, the idea is to downsize and spend less but I don't know if that's going to happen.  I love our home in so many ways as I look at the other homes.  The homes that have been built in the last 10 years are a Tuscany style and they're all very dark. I like lots of white.  I really love the new craftsman homes, I just don't like the modern Decor.  Tasha and I both like lots of white in our home.  Looking at houses has put me in the decorating mood.  I want to give our house a good cleaning and de-cluttering things, that's challenging with Natasha living here.  I couldn't sleep so I got up really early this morning and started taking the Christmas down,  it's a mess right now.  It will feel good to get all the Christmas stuff put away, that will be my challenge for the day to get Christmas put away and then I can start working on some other house projects.  I still really love our home, so many things about it, I am so torn about moving right now.  It's a process that we're going to have to work through.

Joy

In mortality  we don’t have to be weighed down by discouragement and sadness. We can put our trust in the Lord and be positive.  As we put our trust in God’s plan for us and choose to live with a positive attitude, our ability to deal with life’s challenges will be strengthened. Our worries and fears will affect us less, and we will experience the joy He wants for us.  Practice this week being joyful no matter what !!

My New Year Goals

I want to continue losing weight, I'm down to150 pounds ending the year out.   I peaked out at a 175lbs last year, it feels good to drop down 25 pounds and I want to lose another 10 to 15 pounds so that will be my goal for January and February and then to keep it off the rest of the year.  Once I get my weight off,  I would like to have a tummy tuck surgery.  I would like to do it in February but we have a trip to Washington DC and I want to feel well enough to enjoy my trip there.  The surgery is going to have to wait, maybe in March. Once I get my arm feeling I want to get back to the gym and exercise more as well.  This year I want to be better in attending my church meetings and in studying the Scriptures.  I slacked off a lot last year.  I know we attended our meetings as much as I possibly could but there were times that we should've probably made more of an effort to be there.  I need to do better in reading and study my scriptures and saying my personal prayers, want to strive on working on this.  I want to continue working on my family history and digital scrapbooking that's an ongoing process.

Taking mother to a back doctor

I made an appointment for her today at 10 AM with a back specialist here in Utah to see what they can do to help mother with her back problems, she has gone downhill a lot since last year, she can hardly walk and get around it's very difficult for her.  She has been sick the entire time she's been here, she came down with a bad stomach bug a few days before Christmas and then she's had a really bad cold and cough, she was able to call her doctor yesterday and get a prescription for her.  She has not snapped out of it  I could hear her coughing all night long last night she is really sick,  hopefully we can make it to the doctors appointment today

Today is Michael's birthday

Michael is  going to be 17 years old today.  Where have the years gone, they go by all to fast, our oldest grandson 17 years old, hard to believe!!  

Home Sweet Home

It feels good to be home, arriving Sunday evening.  The Towner's and Thomas families left Sunday afternoon about 2:30pm.   We had to spend time cleaning up before we came home.  My sweet husband vacuumed the entire cabin.  After our little talk New Year's eve Craig was much better to me, he babied me the rest of the weekend.  I needed more attention from him with my hurt arm.  I know he is trying.  He suggested we celebrate my birthday on another time during the year.  New Year's eve day is always hard, that is the biggest sports day event of the year and the guys all like to watch sports.  I've hated it all these years, I feel so neglected on my birthday.  Now with all the son-in-law's in the family sports time definitely rules.  We need to get another TV at the cabin so those that don't want to watch sports can watch something else.  Craig was really good about it this year,  limiting his time in watching any sports on New Year's Day which I really appreciated.  I know he was doing that for me to make it a special day. It felt really good to be home.  I have lots that needs to be done around here. I had to get up early Monday morning and go to a dermatologist appointment.  I kept busy yesterday.  Trisha and Buck stop by Monday evening to give me my birthday present.  They gave me a gift card for a pedicure which will feel really good when I have the time to break away.  I wanted to start taking down our Christmas decorations, the house feel so dirty and cluttered, there needs to be some good cleaning that I'm still not able to do with my fractured arm. I can't keep our house as clean as I would like with Tasha and the kids living here, just have to let loose for a while longer.  We do enjoy the little Grankids so much, they are so darling!! 

The Sabbath Day

Jan 3rd, 2016 Sabbath day.  I really wanted to go to church today.  Mother is too sick and feel we shouldn't leave her.  It is hard to break away with all the family here at the cabin.  6 kids under the age of 5yrs.  Stacy is feeling very sick pregnant.  We are just not going to make it to church today.  Next week will be a better week for us.  It has been two weeks with my fracture arm.  Hard to do much of anything.  The pain is slowly getting better.  Going to try to wash and dry my hair by myself today.  We are studying the life of Howard W Hunter this year.  I remember when he was serving as our prophet.  I have enjoyed reading the history of his life printed in the manual for our study this year.  I want to do better in keeping up with the lesson material.  I what to do better in applying the principles I learn in my daily life.  Pray for health & strength this year. Looking back and reflecting about our lives, last year was a very challenging year for Craig and I with our health.  I have lost weight and want to keep going.  I'm 20 pounds Lighter than last year,  I feel really good. I want to lose 15 more lbs.  Craig & I started our diet on Halloween this past year and have done well in losing weight.  Keeping it off is going to be the challenge!! 

Fun Day At The Lake

Stacy & Baby Farrah

Our Winiston Thomas 3 yrs old

Grandma Debbie & Annie Girl

Win playing in the snow.

Lincoln, Uncle Chad & Bridger cleaning their goose

Bridger shot a goose and we ate it for dinner.  We enjoyed playing in the snow and just hanging out for the weekend with the Towner family and Thomas family. Natasha had a girls weekend in St George, Bridger has been watching the kids.  Coming to lake we could all help him with the kids.  

Great Picture of Bridger with his prized Canadian Goose

Happy New Year 2016

We arrived to the cabin about 5:30 pm.  I didn't know if I was going to make it.  Yesterday I was in so much pain, just the thought over whelmed me packing and coming to the lake.  My right side has been hurting me really bad.  I tried to get a sub for my temple session last night.  Craig was wanting to come to the cabin early.   My mother was feeling sick with a bad cold too.  I didn't know if she would be well enough to come. Craig has been so short with me for days.  Being hurt is not fun, be glad when my broken wrist is healed. It is hard to do much.  My husband is not very good to attending to my needs.  I'm trying to stay up beat and not let this get to me.  Having my mother here does add more stress to our lives.   I'm so stressed with Tasha & her family living with us.  Our house has just been over taken.  Three months now.  I don't want to say anything to upset Tasha, I know it is hard for her too not being in her own home and having all their belonging in storage.  She is so ready for her own home.  Buying an auction home is not working out for them.   It has  felt good to come to the cabin and have a small moment of quite time...... 

Craig & Debbie Happy New Year!!

before anyone arrives.   We went to dinner at Cafe Sabors.   Fun to visit with Flint & Jackie,( our cousins and Bear Lake neighbors),  they meet us there.  Scott & Troy came for dinner too.  Fun to be out.  I was feeling coupe up.   We came back to the cabin to bring in the new year.  Craig was really snappy with me when I was changing the channels to find something I wanted to watch.  I had enough of his grumpiness.   Everything is on his terms.  It hurt my feelings, I just went to bed early.   I'm tired of him bossing me around. Now I'm getting the silent  treatment.  Stacy & Chad arrived at midnight.  There goes our short period of quite time. It is hard on the kids arriving so late, baby Farrah is crying and not happy!  We didn't get much sleep.  Bringing in a New Year has not been the most joyfull. I'm feeling stressed with all the family responsibilities and being hurt does not help!!