Our Road Trip To White Fish Montana

Picturesque view eating outside for lunch- we stoped at a local general store high in the mountian pass on our way to Wish Fish Montana- it is so beautiful! We had a yummy burger. it took me all day on Sunday to get ready for our trip- I had to clean out the fridge, laundry, cleaning our bedroom, miscellaneous chores, gather up 4th of July decoration for our YSA meal next week and pack for both us. It took me all day. I was on my feet all day and racing against the clock to get it all done. Craig had a really busy day too. He dressed in his church cloths and out the door by 9:30 am to drive to Logan to visit a young man in our branch who is in the Cache county jail. He then had several calls and things to finish up before we left town. It was 7pm before we could finally get on the road. We drove three hours Sunday evening to get a jump start on our road trip. We were able to find a hotel out in the middle of nowhere to stop for the night. It was Dubious, Idaho- it was the last hotel area to find or we would have had to keep driving another 2 hours. We were too tired to continue. It was nice to have a place to lay our heads down. We slept in till 9am and on the road again it took up 11 hours to arrive to our final destination in White Fish Montana. Bridger and Chad rented us a fun condo up by the ski resort. It is beautiful here. Stacy and her family drove in from Salt lake. They rented and RV for their family to drive in. They drove from their home in California- to Page Arizona, to Stay on their house boat- from there to Salt lake and their last leg arriving to White fish a 13 hour drive for them-we were all tired and went to bed to rest for our days of adventure. We had a really fun dinner by White fish lake- It was fun to eat at a restaurant right by the lake- where people could dock their boats and walk in. They had a live band playing. It was delightful! They need to do something like this at Bear lake-

Wednesday - Our Pickelball Club dinner

I was so tired Wednesday from our two days of driving back and forth. I tinkered in the house doing chores and trying get things in order from the Thomas family stay-I haven’t had time to tackle it yet. When the Burbidge family was here the first weekend of the month - Trisha left thing so clean I love it when she takes charge and cleans for me. It is really hard for now to keep up work all- nor do I want to constantly be cleaning up after everyone as they come and go- the Thomas family shift - Bridger is a mess he scatters rhinga everywhere- Natasha was really good about cleaning up and making the beds for me on their family shift- I was left with washing the sheets and towels and tidying up the bedroom the boys slept in- our Pickelball club dinner was so nice- it was fun to visit with those in attendance. Nice to have some of the community members to step up ans organize a pickelball club for us- it has grown and Craig has taught nearly all of them in the beginning- we had over 30 attending with their spouses- the food was all yummy. I took a Dutch oven of potatoes that sister Dahl made and brought to us the day before during the day- she was not able to attend the activity this week. They were so yummy and didn’t want to tell her we had a change of plans as she did not get the memo of a meal plan change. I have never made potatoes like she has before- so it was nice to take to our Pickelball dinner they got devoured. I was discourage with my Pickelball experience with Craig the past two weeks and just wanting to quit- so I didn’t know if I was going to attend. I have felt like just quitting it has cussed to much contention with Craig and I- which I no is my lack skill- Craig is so good and better than anyone in local Club. But glad we attended. As I looked around could see he has had a positive influence teaching so many how to play. We had fun visiting with them all and they did a great job organizing our meeting and creating T-shirts for us all

Family Drama

Trying to please everyone in the family is a challenge- we will be gone over the 4th of July this year-spending it with the Thomas and Towner family in Montana this year. Shannon sent me a nasty text message - Just reading this message this morning - wow! - shannon you are way over acting - I’m making a stand and trying to communicate with everyone before we leave town- Shannon you do not need to be disappointed - we are going to be gone! I like the Noriega family and Barbara and I are good friends- she is alone and has only been here once and had a great time- if we were going to be here I would still allow her to come - only knowing you and your family would not be coming till the weekend - they are all leaving Saturday and most likely will not be staying downstairs -there is plenty of room upstairs- I have no control while I’m gone who sleeps where- Shannon don’t be mad! It is unneeded stress - we are not going to always be here and you are going to have to communicate with your sisters in a nice way - being defensive is not going to help the situation- I text Ryan because he told me too last year - to coordinate with him- you and your family are welcome anytime - I let Shar know that you would be coming up and to communicate to Ryan your arrival - she kindly text back - “I will make sure things are tidy and ready for them when they arrive”- you have to communicate ! Makes me really sad you are acting this way and pushing your Mother away-

Shannon’s Text to me - Ok Now I’m actually so disappointed and so disgusted with all of this .. This is absolute Bull shit Mom and you know it .. I just saw your text to Ryan .. 

Hell No I won’t be checking in with Shar and Dave or Trisha and Buck in fact .. You can tell Shar and Dave that they can stay up stairs and Absolutely do not use my bedroom or the bathroom downstairs they can stay upstairs .I don’t want any of them sleeping in my bed. I deserve my health and my own boundaries you know I get very sick around vaccinated people it affects me negatively .. I have been nothing but honest about our plans for the 4 of July weekend but this is just another level it’s unbelievable unfair … 

The fact that they even think its even OK the entitlement that they have is on another level I would never dream of doing such a thing The entitlement .. But then again I would never think I had the right to demanded or pressure you to cut off one of your daughters and her children from the family they are disgusting..don’t know why you and Dad can’t make up your minds and just be honest with everybody and set real boundaries with everyone you can certainly do it to me and my kids that’s for sure !!. I’m so done I’m so tired of being bullied by SHAR and Trisha I’m over it . I’m so hurt by you Mom I deserve better from you -you have cut me deep tonight . If you want me to tell SHAR where to go, I have no problem doing that -If you wanna wash your hands of me our feelings my kids feels that’s fine . I can do that trust me it won’t be pretty but I have no problem telling her where to go . PS-please don’t call me I’m done with this conversation I have better things to do with my time and energy it’s my Daughters Birthday tomorrow and I need her to have all of my attention tomorrow . Thanks for the honesty…

so with that said - she is way overacting- They are leaving Sunday to go to Las Vegas for three days and won’t be back home until Wednesday evening- and then turn around and come up to the lake on Friday for the 4th of July- I really don’t see happening. Shannon does not hold up to that much traveling- just coming to the lake is hard on her and then adding their trip to Vegas a few days before- if they do come -Noriega's will be all gone by Saturday and even if they are there there is plenty of room - the means word is what is so hurtful - talk about entitlement! It’s our lake home and I can do as I please- we have made it available to all family we just need to communicate. This is what Shannon is terrible about- she will not communicate- that is why I sent a text to Ryan that if they do come to let Shar know their arrival time- Shar has done nothing wrong- Shannon is being really mean as far as I’m concerned- and terrible in speaking to me the way! She is over acting the situation. It is our family lake home and a place to gather as family. Just want peace and Harmony! It blew up last summer with her and Trisha trying to talk out their differences and I’m caught in the middle of it. They both have not been back To the lake since last year for the 4th 2024. It has been an entire year and would think she would be grateful to even have a place to go- a blessing we are providing as her parents- it is costing them nothing- I just throw my hands up in the air! Shannon is being so difficult!

YSA Drama/ New Family Shift-

Buck, Boston and Jacob arrived about 4:30 pm yesterday. I just barely got things cleaned up from the Thomas family last week. Monday and Tuesday this week were consumed with us driving to Logan on Monday for our Lab work and shopping for food for our YSA - Tuesday we left early 7:30 am to drive to Salt Lake for our annual Dr. appointment and a rush to get back up for our YSA Tuesday night activity- we have had some drama going on with our YSA activity committee. Linda Rasmussen our 1st counselors wife has been too controlling and hurt sister Droesbekes feelings - I have had to call sister Droesbeke to smooth things over. She was taking inventory of what we already have in the kitchen at the church so the activity committee was not buying more than we needed- well sister Rassmensen was snappy too her and annoyed by Sister Droesbeke- I could see what happened as I observed- I called Amber to apologize and try to smooth things over with her-trying to be a peacemaker which I was able to do. I have a special relationship with Sister droesbeke-I just told her sister Rasmussen means well that she can get a little pushy and controlling I’ve noticed and I just have to back off and let her do her thing. I think part of the problem is the new activity leader that has been asked to be the committee head chair is really good friends with Linda and she confided to Linda she is not good at planning the food for the activities-it is challenging for her and that she didn’t feel real comfortable with it, but willing to take on the job. Linda felt like she needed to step in to help her plan food and has taken control of the committee basically. So Sunday Linda was being very pushy in taking charge. Tara and Linda had planned Dutch oven chicken from the left over chicken from the activity last week- they had lots of it left over- I haven’t gone to the activity the past two weeks with my emotional break down- so Linda felt she was covering for me too. I felt I needed a break from all the meal planning- I had already bought hamburgers and hots at the beginning of the summer season and we had enough left over for another beach party activity. When I got home from church last Sunday night I told Craig what happened at the church and that Amber got her feelings hurt. That Tara had confided to Linda she felt uncomfortable planning meals. And Why was there confusion going on- I just want to be out of the loop entirely for the rest of the summer- let the activity committee take charge. This has been his conversation with Tara to take the branch presidency wives out of the loop to give us a break from the weekly activity- when we are already planning and feeding 100 people each Sunday for our linger longer time after our meetings.Well Linda was not taking not taking herself out of the loop to help cover for Tara- she had been sick this past week too- so Linda was taking charge- she had asked me to make potato’s and pick up brats at Costco for our activity this week and I knew I was not able to make potato’s with us going to salt lake on Tuesday- I told Craig Linda was set on her meal plan for the activity this week to help Tara. I could see there was a problem at church- in communication with sister Droesbeke and Linda- when Amber said I’m just doing my job and responding to the committee text thread- when sister Rassmensen said what text message ? So I asked Craig to check the committee text thread to see if Linda was included, and she was not- so I could see where some contention was taking place due to the break in communication going on- Craig just took charge at that point and told Linda we are using the hot dogs and hamburgers we already have and save the Dutch chicken meal for another activity. In visiting with Amber she called Tara to clarified their plans. Tara told Amber that Linda was being overly assertive with her too- I know Linda means well and just trying to help. I have learned her personality can be over bearing at times and I just back off and let her take over. She has been a pain working with her for this Sunday linger longer meal. I made a large bowel of pico salsa from the left over tomatoes last weeks activity and it’s yummy- taste much better than rhe store bought salsa- when I brought it in the kitchen she snapped at my why did you make this- we already have lots of store bought salsa- I could have been offended but just said no problem I just knew it taste better and the extra salsa will keep- they will need it for the 4th of July weekend when they plan Tacos- I then suggested to her I could make a large green salad this Sunday since I have lots of lettuce and tomatoes left over again- from the weekly activity- she then got pushy and said then let’s just charge the entire meal from what we already planned for this week which is cracker, cheese and pickles- and I have already bought a large portion of the items needed. I give up! I told her just leave things the way they are and I will not make a salad- I’ll be so glad when Chris Smoot the 2nd counselors wife is back in town. They have been gone three weeks. She can help Linda this Sunday- Craig decided we are going to leave this Sunday early afternoon to break up our trip driving to Fish lake Montana on Monday- he also needs to stop to see Ryder Rassmensen one of our YSA members who is in prison. He was arrested this week. Craig- as the Branch President can only visit him on the weekends. So to not have to make an extra drive to Logan we will stop to see him on Sunday and continue our drive north. No since driving back and forth. It is an hour drive just to get to Logan and now adding construction in the canyon adds at least another hour or more one way- With Craig changing the meal plan this week back to hamburgers and hot dogs - which we had all the items in our freezer put me back in the loop for this week activity. We had to haul all the food to the lake and set up on Tuesday evening- it was a mad rush for us to get back from Salt lake in time. We had just enough time to throw everything in the truck and out the the door we go again. When we arrived - the Garden City 1st Ward was already here at our lake home hanging out. Criag told Pat Argyle the new young women’s president that they could host the young men and women’s weekly activity at our place this week. He did tell her we would not be able to be there due to our YSA activity the same night. We headed to the north shore beach- it was windy but a beautiful evening- it was a made rush getting things set up- we didn’t have any tables at first so we were setting up on the tail gates of our their trucks- a tail gate party- we had a gear turn our not sure how many but we went thru 54 hamburgers and 48 hot dogs- all the cookies and chips we had purchased this week. When we got home Craig complained about how much work it was and that our committee needs to kick in- I didn’t attend the previous two weeks and Craig has had to help again this week - he finally understood why I was so overwhelmed- I have been organizing all the food for Sundays and the weekly activies- we have not had a working activity committee since last summer. It was nice last year to be able to just show up and jump in to help where needed- just not being in charge. This way I could mingle with the ysa members-and take pictures. My calling in the Branch is to record a history. When I’m helping with all the food I’m not able to mingle and to busy to take any pictures. So with me bailing out on him three weeks ago - he finally understood I needed a break- Craig has a lot to deal with serving as the Branch president- he has had many interviews helping them with challenges in their lives- we have one YSA local young man that is a mess acting out in many ways and now he is in prison- I have had to go to the church and sit in the foyer area when he is in his counseling sessions- it is isolating for me I can’t ask questions and I no it wears on Craig emotionally too. So my dear hubby has gotten hit hard this month with me falling apart and all his church responsibilities. I feel bad for not holding it together- he is trying to do the best he can. We just barely got our YSA Relief society organized and sustained two weeks ago- I have been wanting to take a picture of them- well this week Our President called and said she wa ta to be released. Two summers before we were called she was mistreated by one of our YSA young men. Ahe thought she could serve in the branch this year. So exited to have her and now she says she can’t - it is still to emotional for her- she is moving her records to another ward. So now Craig has to reorganized a new YSA relief society presidency- it is really hard to have a functioning branch when the YSA members come and go so fast-

Tuesday - Our Annual Dr Appointment

Craig and I woke up early to drive down to the Salt lake valley for our annual physical exam- it’s a quick trip- we scheduled the appointment a year ago- a fast year gone by- we had to get up early yesterday morning to drive to Logan for our lab work. It was an all day drive down and back to the lake. It’s a hour drive down the Logan canyon with summer construction going on- it added another hour just getting through the canyon- and our return trip the same so 4 hours up and back- we were in and out fast for our lab work- we had to fast 24 hours so we were really hungry afterwards and went to Culver’s for lunch right next to the hospital- from there we made a Costco trip to buy grocery’s for our up coming beach YSA party tonight at the north beach. From there it was back to the lake we spent more time driving than our errands. We came home thru emigration canyon thinking it would save us some time but they had construction going on too- so we saved no time- coming or going it is just a longs ways- today another six hour drive for our dr appointment and turn around and head back this afternoon- so we can be back in time for our YSA activity tonight. We spend a lot of time driving to and from. We do have a car maintenance appointment for our new Lexus at 1:15- we barely have time to stop in at our Draper townhouse to pick up our passports and drop off the title to our black Lexus - Alec is buying it from us- We paid $12,000 for it three years ago and now selling it to Alec for $4,000.00- not a great investment just have to count it as transportation cost the past three years- it has been a good car to drive us back and forth from the lake- we put 50,000 miles on it since we bought it. I’m feeling really tired and have been so the past few months. This last emotional upset has taken a tole on my heath. I can tell my immune system is fighting to recover. While we were waiting for our car maintenance we grabbed some lunch and then walked down to the Chevrolet Dealership to look at the new Corvette’s in their showroom- I told Craig to pick one out for his upcoming 70th Birthday in August. He found one he really likes. Their asking more that he wants to pay. He let them know they need to come down on there price- the Art of the deal ! We had to leave to head back to the lake- Craig said they would be calling him back if they want to sell the car - sure enough they did call him today to chat and Craig told them they need to negotiate a lower price so we will see? It is a really pretty car ! I really like it too -a fun metallic candy apple red with the automatic roll down convertible top - it is impressive with beatiful interior. It is comfortable sitting and a little easier for me to get in and out of. It would be a very nice birthday gift 🎁!

Wednesday Again !

This past week has flown by- we enjoyed spending time with the Thomas family Thursday thru Sunday morning- we had two really warm Boating days- Thursday and Friday- Saturday we had a 20 degree drop in temperature- it actually felt nice to have it cool off- Natasha the girls, Bridger, Winn all left to head home by afternoon. Lincoln and Landon did not leave until Sunday morning- Landon drove up our Black Lexus from our town house on arriving Thursday to hang out with Lincoln-they have become good friends and hang out often. They had fun Saturday night hang out hear at lake together and then driving home Sunday - some teenager fun now that Landon can drive on his own- he drove them home- Landon drove the car to his house and this is when Alec saw the car and arranged to buy it from Grandpa- he paid him cash doe the car. So good for him- Landon is going to be jealous- I know he wanted the car- but he needs to save some money- he is not working and needs to get a job- I texted him to day there is a summer job opening at Bear lake pizza they are hiring. He could come live at the lake for the summer-he is suppose to get back with me. It’s an invite! I have kept busy today cleaning up from the Thomas family visit today doing house chores. I have been really tired today pushing myself to get things down. We have a Pickelball dinner gathering tonight looking forward to visiting with our Pickelball friends - we had a great YSA beach party activity last night- it was another full day rushing g from one thing to the next- when we arrived home had to hurry and gather up last things

Wednesday A Better Day

I woke up early and felt I needed to go on a walk-my back was hurting from shutting down and being in bed for two days. Craig woke up early too so we we walked our 2 mile route at 7:30 am. I felt bad I was not able to attend our YSA activity Tuesday evening- I still had a booming headache and was not able to physically attend. Craig said they had a good turn out about 40- they met at the Laketown baseball diamond and played several games with yummy Kentucky Fried Chicken- Craig was able to pick up potato salad and macaroni salad at Mikes Market to add to the meal. Craig said many asked where I was? After our walk I watered my flowers and tidied up the kitchen. Craig was really tired and took a morning nap on the couch watching the news- I could tell he was feeling under the weather too- emotional stress takes it out of us both- by noon he wanted to take the boat out on the water it’s going to be a warm sunny afternoon. We stopped by Subway for sandwiches to eat out on the water. We enjoyed spending time together and boating on the lake. The afternoon flew by before we knew it it was 6:30 pm and dinner time- I fixed us a yummy salmon dinner. Just as we were sitting down to eat Bridger and Lincoln walked in. They were hungry too so I cooked more salmon for them. It was a full day for us and I really did enjoy the day with my dear husband with no distractions. A great re-bonding time for us both we were up late visiting. I had put in a full day with no afternoon nap. I fell in to bed dead tired. I was trying to stay awake for Natasha and the girls arrival - I just couldn’t keep my eyes opened. They didn’t arrive until after midnight-I didn’t hear them even come in - I was in deep sleep!

Rock Bottom -

Here I ago again - the worst anxiety attack. I feel like I’m having a heart attack. My chest has constant pain piercing. My head is booming and I feel terrible and shaky inside-really bad /one of my worst attacks. I had a panic attack last night and felt like an out of body experience-I was shaking like a leaf inside and out I couldn’t controll the shaking- I was up every two hours pacing the floor- I should have gone to the hospital to treat my anxiety symptoms but I did not want it on my medical record. It has felt like I’m having a heart attack. I just figure if it’s my time and I kill over- I have tried to live a good life at this point in time. I have had the worst chest pain all day long and a booming headache. I have been flat in bed all day- at least I have been able to sleep some- Craig has been good to kick in and take care of me. When my attack came on I took myself to the Bear lake medical center but they had just closed at 8pm- I had no idea where Craig was when I woke up his car was gone- I drove around looking for him and couldn’t find him- I started shaking really bad and knew I could not drive myself to the ER- I went into panic mood- I kept calling Craig and no answer- I finally called Natasha to tell her she has to come get me- I’m not doing well at all- Craig finally came home to help me- It has been a rough night and day for me- I’m knocked right down and flat in bed- I can hardly function. What set me in panic mood? I woke up happy Monday morning- watering my plants and enjoying the morning sunshine and fresh air- I felt like I would work on weeding my canoe boat planter box with the cool morning air- before it gets too hot. Which I should had done- digging in the dirt is therapy for me and keeps me grounded- well I did want to play some Pickelball- Craig had left early again to play with the Montpellier group coming in town to our Garden city courts- Dale Brower organized the group- I knew it was our coummunity league and I hadn’t played for a week- I got dressed and thought I could play for and hour and then come back to weed- well when I got there we had two community courts playing- I tired jumping in but no place- the ladies on the far end court pushed me out didn’t want me to jump in as threesome and there was already a threesome group playing- so I was waiting for a turn- I wondered down to the other far end courts to watch Craig play- they had three courts full- I was sitting on the bench watching and feeling very uncomfortable- there was not just Montpelier players but friends I have played with in our coummunity league. I was not invited to play with them. Dale who organized saw I was sitting and watching-he came and sat down by me and asked if I wanted to play and I said sure- for the next game I could play with Craig- well when Craig finished his game I could rotate in- Craig abruptly said no I don’t wanna play with her. I want to beat these girls. And Dale rotated in- Craig had already been playing two hours- so I left and went back to the other end of the court fighting the tears- the threesome game ended and they were able to split into another team- Greg, a team member could see I was upset and kind enough to invite me to play a game- we only played two games and then players started to leave so no one to play with any more. I had to walk back to the far end of the court to get my Pickelball bag I had left on the bench. When I saw Lindsey and Travis a couple I have played with many times leaving the group- that hurt my feelings even more- Craig still playing hard and giving me no thought- just as I grabbed my bag I heard Craig yell Deb! By then I was in a bucket of tears - and mad as hell !!! I flipped Craig the finger and walked off- crying all the way home- I’m done it’s not not worth being upset any more- I’m obviously not included in their group any more- I was playing because it was something I could do and enjoyed with my husband- I have really tried to improve- I came home to pack up and go back to our Draper home- well Craig gets home and all hell breaks loose- he grabs my bag and throws it to the ground yelling at me I don’t deserve this! and yelling at me -I’m not good enough! to play with this group- I pick up my bag and started picking my things thrown on the garage floor- he’s yelling at me -your going no where! We’re going to talk this out. Well that doesn’t go well for me-He’s not listening to me! He is on the defense and anything I said I was attacking him-I’m not valid in how I feel- it is very hurtful to me he is attacking me too-All I can hear echoing in my head- Is you’re not good enough! I told him I have been here for him thick and thin we’ve been here at the lake for nine years and I’ve given it an honest try, but I feel very lonely and isolated. I’m with him 24 seven and when he treats me unkind it is very hurtful. Nothing was resolved from me leaving last week. I just left because I didn’t have the energy to deal with the contention. We hadn’t talked for four days. I just showed up at the lake again. I didn’t wanna leave him alone on Father’s Day and I wanted to try to make it a nice day for him and let him know that I do love him. I do feel frustrated because he is hurtful all the time and I’m the caretaker and he can be mean and pushy with me and I tolerate it cause I know he’s hurting And I just feel like I’ve been pushed around too much lately and then I feel like I don’t get much attention from him especially on our anniversary I was deeply saddened. I know the medication he’s been taking has affecting him because I feel like he’s not sexually attracted to me anymore which that’s been hard. I just haven’t felt any affection from him- very little. We never kiss anymore and I would just like for him to kiss and hug me. I feel isolated with his Church calling as I get pushed to the side a lot he’s on his phone and I can’t ask any questions and he just pushes me away and distracted. That makes me feel bad. So my list of complaints was way too long which I know doesn’t sit well with him. It just comes down to it that I have been feeling neglected and that my needs aren’t being met. I just keep serving everyone else around me and my well is just dry.. when we are out of sorts I fall apart! This has been a bad breakdown! I need time to heal and recover. When I get this way I don’t wanna be around anybody I just don’t have it to give right now. I would’ve gone back to Draper home to recover, but I was not in a place where I could even drive myself there and I do need my husband to take care of me right now-pushing him away only makes things worse. When I feel really hurt inside I just go into isolation. It’s my mechanism coping from the hurt. I just feel like a little girl again hurting with lots of pain and I keep hearing the words - you’re not good enough! in my brain that I felt so often when I was young. And to hear it from the one person that I love the most in my entire life is very devastating to me. I just crumbled into a heap of tears.

Ani’s 11 Birthday Party

I have been doing a little better -Thursday I went to the temple to give service to others- I was able to perform several baptisms, I then moved to the initiatory section of the temple completed 4 names and from there attended an endowment session. It has been a blessed healing time for me to be in be temple- it has cheered me up and helped me to keep my eternal prospective- to keep loving my dear husband- we both can fall short and just keep trying to do better. I need to put more effort in our relationship too and try to be sensitive to his needs- we are going thru a new season in our lives and trying to figure out the balance. We need to plan some trips together- I’m really burnt out with the Bear lake summer events where we have spent the past nine years. Our window of traveling is going to pass- we are getting older and it is harder to do things. I do get frustrated that Craig seems to be hurt all the time- it’s a rare day that his is not dealing with pain from being hurt. I know he wants to keep doing the things he likes but he pays for it. Pray for the patience I need to care for him. It is hard on the care giver! Friday-Helping our Ani get ready for her birthday party cheered me up- it was so darling- I helped her blow up balloons and the last minute things she wanted done. She invited 5 of her little girlfriends to celebrate with. Cant believe she is 11 years old ! Such a special granddaughter- love her so very much! Left the party after her friends all arrived. I needed to get on the road to drive back to the lake. I don’t like driving at night- so out the door I went by 6:30 pm- arriving just before dark. It was so hot in the Salt lake valley it felt good to be back up north in a more pleasant temperature.

Happy Fathers Day

Celebrating my dear husband today who has been the best father to our 5 girls- they all love him very much- he has made our lives a fun adventure and blessed us with cherished memories to reflect upon- we are lonely today with not getting together. The girls and their families are all spread out- with our young single adult calling we have to stay in town. Our meetings are not until 5pm-7pm so makes it where we can’t leave to visit. Natasha texted this morning to let us know she is speaking in her sacrament meeting today- we are so blessed to have zoom connection so we can sign in online to watch their sacrament program-and hear Natasha speak on this Father’s Day- I surprised Craig with a new Bear Lake ball cap- when I was looking at his hats I notice he had only one Bear lake hat that Micheal gave to him many years ago- it is getting worn. It’s time for a new Bear lake Hat. I also got him a new petty blue polo shirt to match his new hat. We have had a nice morning- we walked our two mile route and listened to a pod cast for this Sunday Come follow me lesson today D&C 60-63- I have really enjoyed the messages taught- I fixed us a raspberry crepe with the yummy Bear lake raspberry jam I made. This is a beautiful summer day to honor the fathers in our lives. We are blessed with 5 wonderful son-in-laws-they each have added so much to our lives and have been wonderful fathers to our 20 grandchildren. I sent them each a text note letting them know them know how much we love and appreciate them.

Wednesday Blues

I feel really Hollow today- I was able to sleep in till 9am - I went to Maverick for breakfast and then went to visit the Thomas family- they were at the tennis courts- little Ani and Cora taking tennis lessons- they looked so cute in their little tennis skirts- learning to hit the ball. Ani had to show me her surprise when we arrived at their home up in the playroom they had transformed into a sleepover party room. It is so darling. She had six hot pink Indian TP tents with stars lights framed around each one- they each have a blow up mat to sleep on- with a hot pink Cheetah blanket and cheetah pajamas for each of them and they have a hot pink cheetah swimsuit to swim in -Natasha set up a movie screen that comes across the entire room so they can watch a movie in they’re little TP tents and have their birthday celebration with a snack bar- Ani is celebrating her birthday early again this year as they will be at lake Powell on the 14th of July- they have a busy summer schedule- their leaving in the morning to stay with some friends who have a home at a private lake for the night and day- coming back Friday for Ani’s birthday celebration starting at 5pm- Saturday afternoon Natasha is hosting a Father’s Day family gather for all of Bridger's family- She is leaving on the 26th to Nashville Tennessee for 3 three days for a pop up sale event hosted by Ivy City- and then on the 29th flying out to Fishlake Montana for a week over the 4th of July- they barely arrive home and off to Lake Powell- they have invited us to Montana for the week along with the Towner family flying in to spend the week with us- it will be a new experience for Craig and I we have never been to Montana it is about an 8 hour drive for us- I enjoyed helping Ani blow up balloon to decorate her party room and visit with Natasha for a bit- I watched little Coco play in their swimming pool. It has been 90 degrees here in the Salt lake valley and a little cloud cover so it felt nice to be outside in the fresh air. Natasha and Bridger are both so busy- Natasha was bouncing multiple balls so speak in the air at the same time. Getting ready for Ani’s party, the painters in the house doing touch up, the house cleaners at the house and the kids running around, Ani is very demanding for her time and attention- she didn’t have time for me- she had to fix them lunch and then off to take Ani to Cheer lessons- it was a short visit. I wanted to visit but no time slot with Natasha- she has a full plate. I left feelings unfulfilled right now- she off doing exciting things with her family and friends- I can see my season has passed- I’m left alone with not much going on in my life- with out Craig and our church calling- it is rather boring- I needed a break from Craig he has stressed me out with all his aches and pains and caring for him. I’m just left feeling empty right now- welcome to our older years- I know I’m slowing down physically I feel it too! My lower back has been very achey today. I picked up some Taco Bell for lunch and came home to take a nap! Karlee arrived from the lake staying here at our Draper home for a few days. Her boyfriend Rett is arriving tomorrow night and they planned to spend a few days together. He’s been in Costa Rica for a month selling solar systems. It’s Father’s Day weekend on Sunday June 15th- it’s hard for me to plan anything when Craig has to be at church - our meetings not till 5pm- we can’t go anywhere- and none of our family has plans to come up for the weekend- we just had the Burbidge family at the lake for a week. I don’t know what to do- I’m beaten down right now and not happy with Craig’s behavior towards me on our Anniversary on Saturday. I thought our retirement years would be more fun traveling some and seeing more of the world Here we are -our prime years passed by- it is going on 10 years and we have spent all our time at the lake- we have only gone on one big trip- when we did our own church history tour in 2018- that was 7 years ago- we went to California a few times to visit Stacy and her family and to Arizona with Mcdougal’s twice which I’m not doing that again- low budget trips- I did enjoy our time in St George before Craig was called to the YSA- staying at Natasha new home, but came to an end- I’m just feeling a huge void in my life again -what to do with myself? Craig and I spending all our time together- I have no girlfriends- to do anything with him - he has plenty of outlets goes golfing with friends and plays Pickelball the one thing we could do together- I have tired to learn and play - but Craig really hurt my feelings when he takes off and plays with others and does not invite me- I feel I have committed all my time to him and I have not nurture anything outside of our relationship- I’m left feeling alone - and what on earth do I do with myself- my girls are all busy with their families and friends-I’m being pushed further out with no social outlets- it’s so hard I have immersed my life in my family and now I’m left alone more and more- they don’t want to get together as extended family- so it’s hard to plan a family party any more-so up coming Father’s Day is a disappointment to me- nothing to look forward to- depression setting in even more as I’m trying to pull myself out of my deep hole-

Trying to Chipper up

I slept all night which is good- till 9am -emotional pain takes it out of me. I did wake up with a booming headache. I got my self dressed and went to Maverick to get a drink and something to eat- trying to chipper myself up - I just fell apart yesterday. I just feel taken advantage of and by my husband is even more hurtful- I have given my whole heart and soul to him. I have given him slack with him hurt- tearing his hamstring back a month ago playing pickellball and that has effected his lower back with lots of pain- it is always something with him. We go from one ailment to the next and it really wears on me- I’m the care taker and he gets so short and honorary- I understand he is in pain and I’m trying to have compassion for him- I hurt too as I get older my lower back can be very temperamental and I have to pace myself- if I over work I have to just go to bed and rest to recover- I have been on my feet alot and have over did in working around our lake home cleaning and cooking for our YSA activities- I get no physical comfort from Craig- not a foot rub or any physical contact- I’m always rubbing on him- his knees and his back- I just feel I need some extra attention and not getting any to comfort me- I just keep giving and my well is dry right now- he has just drained it all out of me. This has been building for months- he keeps hurting himself - I know it’s not intentional-I have to suffer the consequences right along with him. With his hurt back we couldn’t plan to go anywhere for our anniversary. It is always Bear lake- there we stay- I would like a change of scenery- now the summer months are upon us with all the responsibility of our young single adult calling and the family coming in and out to visit at the lake, it’s a lot of work and I’m starting out with a dry well which is not good. I don’t have a lot to give right now. I’m just burned out so I’ve got to figure out how to gut it up for another summer season-

Not doing Good Emotional

I’ve had an emotional breakdown this morning- just feeling so sad and being abused by my husband- I have to say it was the worst wedding anniversary I can remember. Not much effort from him - and it really hurts. I have worked so hard in the YSA and it’s been stressful on me lately. I’ve just sucked it up and tried to keep going cheerfully, but it’s been difficult with Craig hurting and grumpy- i’ve had to put on a happy face with the Burbidge family hanging out for over a week now- Buck has been very helpful in installing my flower drips- I’m very appreciative. I’m just getting anxiety thinking about all the summer activities. I’m just burned out- trying to keep it going yet feeling so sad and disappointed inside trying to hide my emotions which I couldn’t do anymore today -I’ve had enough. Craig got up early and left this morning not saying anything. I wasn’t sure if he went to Pickleball, car wash,? Buck said he went to therapy which he hadn’t told me he had an appointment. My nerves on edge and feeling shaky inside- I watered my plants to try to calm down- this was not helping- I knew we have a YSA activity tonight so I gathered up the things we will need to feed the crew- I bought hot dogs and hamburgers a couple weeks ago which I’m glad I did in advance- I was heading to the church to pick up chips and things in the fridge. Feeling so sad and lonely- I don’t have it to give today. Craig came up behind me and pulled around to pull me over- he gave me some yellow flowers, card and my favorite sushi that I like to eat at the deli-I was already too upset- took the items, laid on the seat and just told him the damage was already been done and drove off. I picked up the stuff at the church and went back and dropped off adding to my pile in the garage- told him I had a dermatologist appointment I had to go to for a follow up and out the door I go driving down the road crying my eyes out all the way. I just arrived at our Draper townhouse and I’m so tired and exhausted from crying. Just a huge disappointment.. I just don’t feel like I have it to give right now and I don’t wanna be around anybody. He’s just gonna have to figure out the activity food and get those around that can help him. I need some rest! And hopefully I can chipper up- I’ve arrived safely to our Draper townhouse- a quite place to regroup myself for another day- depression has set and and I need to fight it-

Frustrated with my Hubby

Even at our age, being married 48years - Marriage can be challenging. You’d think we would have it figured out. I was disappointed on our anniversary celebration, not much excitement or expression from my dear husband, not even a card and barely a hug or a kiss which I had to instigate- I have to say it was a big disappointment, but I just swipe it under the rug - another year goes by- I know we are very blessed and have a good marriage- I just feel I’m taken for granted and wished he had showed more appreciation- I know we have family here for the week and he is not feeling well with his back pain- I have tried to be the supported wife- it is really hard when he is short and demanding with me- I just need some tenderness and some special attention too! This morning I got my feelings hurt he was up early to play Pickelball and I was not invited with his little group- I did go to play with our Bear lake community- but not having fun when I’m feeling excluded by my husband- it’s a sore subject- he has wanted me to learn to play and I have tried really hard to learn- it has been something I felt we could do together and enjoy- well summer hits and he doesn’t want to play with me anymore I’m not good enough- it really hurts my feelings - so I just don’t want to play anymore. I’m already feeling slighted from our anniversary and today just makes me feel even more hurt. I got so upset I had to just go home after playing for an hour- he can find a ride home- well he ended up walking two miles and then hitched a ride home another 2 miles from the Marina-I’m just not very happy with him right now- Buck installed the drip system for my flower pots this morning, I really appreciate it. We then went boating for a few hours. I called my sister and now my heart is aching for her- I’m just feeling very sad today!

My Sister / At a Homeless Shelter-

My Heart is aching for my sister Michele- she is 63 years old and staying at a Homeless shelter right now. She has been there for a month now. Today is very disappointing- she had a court hearing today thinking she could get a restraining order against John her common law husband so she could get back into her home she has lived in for 13 years- well that did not go well for her, she did not do the correct filing and had been misdirected in the process. She is devastated. Randy -her son came to live with her a month ago- just before Mother’s Day- well once he arrived John flipped out and did not want him in the house- he threaten Randy with a gun to leave. Michele was so upset ended up at the hospital and then they sent them to the homeless shelter in Nacogdoches, Texas the closest town to her little town of Timpson Texas so they’ve been there for a month now she was very hopeful about this court hearing today and it did not go well. She’s so upset and my heart aches for her. She is in a pickle. She needs to get back in her home- It’s all she has! Randy coming to Texas has turned her life upside down and he’s nothing but a ball and chain-she’s having to pay his car insurance and help him out when she’s barely getting by herself. It’s a big mess! Her and John have been cohabitating not legally married but have a common law marriage they have built a home together and live together for 14 years so now she’s gonna have to fight and hire an attorney to even get a divorce -to try to get some money out of the house will be her only survival of any finances. She is terrible about managing her money. She just got paid on June 3 $1600 her monthly income now and she said she has only $400 left. I don’t know what the heck she’s done with her money the past three days with them staying in the homeless shelter they shouldn’t have very many expenses - she is supposed to be saving what little money she does have. At this rate she can’t save any money- I remember trying to help her when she got divorce from her first husband, Rodney and she was terrible at managing her money. I finally had to just walk away and let her sink or swim. She had to figure things out. She didn’t do so well on her own - ended up living with my mother for a year when she met John and they hooked up 14 years ago-so now here we are again fighting another battle. She just needs a really good attorney to help her through this difficult challenge. I don’t know what she’s gonna do. I don’t know how she’s even gonna support herself. Randy is no help at this point. He can’t even help himself. He’s taking money from his own mother when he should be caring for her. I called her Bishop in the area to see if he can refer us to a good attorney to try to help her fight this battle. I feel like she somehow needs to be able to be allowed to go back into their home that she’s lived in for the past 13 years, she shouldn’t have to be staying at a homeless shelter My heart just aches for her. I just don’t know what to do -something she’s gonna have to work out on her own. I’ll support her the best I can. It’s a can of worms that I don’t want to have to deal with.

Our Sabbath Day

This has been a nice sabbath day. The Burbidge family is staying till Tuesday they will have been here an entire week. Saydee left this morning at 9:30am with her two guy friends Kia and Creed who also ran in the race. They had to get back to St George for work. They are nice young men and seem to be great friends to Saydee. I think she could end up marrying one of them- time will tell. We kept busy today visiting and eating yummy left overs- Trisha has cooked us such yummy meals the past four days - three times a day- more food than Ive eaten for months- Craig and I have been dieting and have cut way back on our food intake. I’ve got to get back on my diet - I don’t want to gain back what I have lost- I’m up 2 pounds and need to keep going down not up- I had to take a nap before church with our meeting so late 5pm- 7pm. We only had 72 in attendance this week- last week we had 91- we served left over sandwiches from our weekly activity and banana brownies I made - and served root beer floats. It all got gobbled up. Craig didn’t get home until after 9pm- I was feeling sad and just trying to gut it up- I was very disappointed by his actions toward me on our anniversary day- just trying to suck it up - our weekly activity Theo week we are meeting at the North Beach- Craig and I are going to have to help host- we are short on adult leaders- brother and sister Rasmussen and brother sister Smoot will be out of town. It will just be us and our new couple Brother and sister McMullions- it is a beach party at the North beach- the weather is going to be 82 degrees on Tuesday so it will be a great activity to host at the beach- we are cooking hamburgers and hot dogs- I’ll have to pick up things for it - since we are hosting again on the food- Our church meetings went well - we had two zYSA sisters speak and they did a great job- our conference talk discussion we were able to split into two groups Relief Society and Elder’s quorum this week. We have been meeting all together but able to split now with the summer crowd. Everyone had a nice time visiting with one another for our linger longer time after our meetings- this has been a blessed Sabbath day- just feeling sad !

Our 48th Wedding Anniversry

June 7th 2025 we celebrated our 48th wedding anniversary! Where have the years gone? All too fast for me. We didn’t plan much this year with Craig’s back hurting-he does not feel well enough to go any where. We have the Burbidge family here for their half marathon race and are supporting them. We were up early and out the door by 8am to cheer them on when they come across the finish line. Craig road his bike to catch up with them on the run and encourage them along the way. Boston and I walked two miles down the path and back to the finish line. The mosquitoes were bitting on our walk and bite me all over, we were swatting them as we walked. Craig and I came back early and went to Cooper’s for an early anniversay lunch. It is so pretty over looking the lake. They were all beat after their race and had to rest the afternoon. I was beat and had to take a nap too. After our nap Craig and I played some Pickelball using our slinger to work on some skills. I worked on my backhand. I gave Craig and little wooden picture- our new saying “I Love you to the Lake and back- we spend so much time driving back and forth to the lake. As the day ended no gift or card from my hubby- I was feeling very disappointed that he did not put forth the effort to show more love and appreciation for my efforts in our marriage. Craig and I at Cooper’s-the lake in the back ground is so pretty Trisha coming across the finish line. Yeah she ran 13 and half miles good for her.

Craig and I on our 48th wedding anniversary we are old people now but trying to enjoying our lives together. Our day wasn’t that eventful and a huge disappointment to me but life goes on-

Working in the Yard

Thursday and Friday I worked in our yard finish planting my summer flowers-it is a shorter season up north and I can’t plant my summer flowers until the first week of June- I loved picking up my potted plants after Memorial Day the last week of May- I have been having to hand water the past two weeks until Buck can help me with the drip system to installed. I was able to finish up my summer planting- Craig went and got some more rock to add to our extra parking area- Buck and Trisha helped us spread the rocks- it cleans things up and looks so much nicer- glad to have that project done- Trisha arrived Wednesday evening with two of Saydee and Karlee’s friends Kia and Creed. They are running in the half marathon with them on Saturday morning June 7th- which is our wedding anniversary day- with Craig back hurting and having them here for the weekend we didn’t make any plans for our anniversary this year- Friday morning I worked and tinkered outside till 2pm- I was able to moved all my spring bulb pots off the upper deck and dig up the bulbs- they didn’t do as well as I had liked. Don’t know why they didn’t grow in the smaller pots I planted in the fall. They did much better planting in the ground. I only had one pot that sprouted- I had to dig them all up and save for this fall- I will have to find where to plant for next year- finally got all my summer planting done and repotting what I have for the season- I love my flowers- the season is just to short here at the lake. Thursday and Friday have flown by- I run out of energy by then so late afternoon and have to lay down and take an afternoon nap to keep going. My darn back is being naughty too! It hurts and I just have to rest- Craig and I are both hurting- not fun but we just keep doing what we can each day. Thursday evening I enjoyed playing Pickelball with Dale and Denise Brower- they are here for the summer- Dale gave me some good pointers on my back hand returns and I’m doing lots better getting to the ball and returning it. It is fun and challenging to play Pickelball-

Busy WeeK/ Temple Attendance

We were able to sleep over two nights at our Draper town home. It was a quick trip- Wednesday morning Craig went to the gym and I tinkered at our Draper home- we attended the 1pm initiatory session I was able to complete 4 family names and they let Craig complete the 7 names I had prepared for us. It felt good to be in the temple. We were done by 2:30 pm. I was missing seeing our little Ashtyn so we drove out to visit the Chaudhry family- we were so hungry we stopped at the Maverick to grab a Hot dog - they actually have good hot dogs with all the fixings to put on it. We visited for four hours with Shannon. She is a talker- Ashtyn showed me her new baby bunny- so cute. Alec helped build Shannon a Chicken coup and fence to contain their chickens and bunnies in one section their yard. They got a new large portable swimming pool- they are enjoying- Shannon and Ashtyn are doing swimming exercises in their pool - Shannon is trying to get so exercise time in. Her health has been so bad over the years it has been very challenging to do much of anything she fatigues so quickly- I know that feeling lately my darn back is being so naughty- it gives out on me and I just have to rest- we had a nice time visiting- Shannon always has lots to talk about- from there we had to stop by Home Depot to pick what I need to install a water drip for my new flower pots at the lake along the driveway steps- Buck is going to help me install it. He gave me a list of what I needed to pick up. Good thing he gave me pictures of each item. There is a lot of boxes to find what I needed and so glad I had a picture to figure out the correct item. Craig wasn’t any help his back was hurting really bad standing- I told him go to the car and wait- I would figure it out- we got home late- I spent over an hour going through my temple names we completed at the temple and had to print out new cards- it is so nice now - when we attend the family name is recored online and I can see it has been completed- I need to print a new card for each family name for each ordinances- two weeks ago I completed several female baptisms - this week initiatory- next is endowment session and then sealing to parents and spouse- it is a process and takes many hours to complete one name- let alone all the hours I spend in research preparing a family name. One name takes 5 hours and research time varies about the same amount time- so this is a work of love- ❤️ for my ancestors- it was late again before crawling into bed- we had to be up early by 7:30 am to be on the road to head back to the lake. Craig had a rehab appointment scheduled at 10:45 am. So out the door we went early to head back to the lake. Wish I had been able to spend more time at our Draper home- glad we have for a quick stay over when we are in town. I woke up early 5:30 am and worked and hour on family research before we left town. I’ve been thinking about by native America ancestor family lines that go back to Pocahontas- I’m so amazed that I actually have this linage- I wanted to start working g on uploading the info in my ancestry.com account for my family to have and know about- it all takes time- I have enjoyed learning more about their history as part of my family tree - back to the lake-

Tuesday / Coco Preschool Graduation -

Today has been a busy day for me a race against the clock- I woke up at 8am. I was sleeping sound when I hear Craig starting the car- he was pulling out our boat out for the day. We went and played two hours of Pickelball. I then had to make banana brownies for your YSA activity tonight. I had to double the recipe and made 4 batches. They turned out yummy !! I then had to wash and cut up strawberries. I barely got things done in time for us to hop in the car by 3:15 to make our drive to Draper so we can attend our little Coco’s preschool graduation- she is our youngest grandchild and I didn’t want to miss it. Natasha gave us short notice texting me yesterday for an invite. We rearranged our schedule so we could attend. I wanted to support of little Cora 🌹 Rose. It feels good to rest sitting in the car our three hour drive down. I had to work fast to get my cooking done for our YSA activity tonight- I was looking forward to attending but can’t be in two places at one time- supporting our Coco Bear is more important- the Daun’s are hosting tonight- doing the same activity we did last year- it was lots of fun - summer Olympic games- I asked sister Linda Rasmussen to take pictures for me-it’s another lovely day at the lake- Buck sent me some beautiful pictures of them on the lake -

Cora’s preschool graduation was so darling. It was the cutest program. Her class of 6 sang their hearts out on the most fun songs about things they were learning. Cora knew all the words. It was a delight to listen to them all sing with such energy. They had the most darling preschool teacher she was fun to watch-her energy as she lead the children in their different songs. So glad we made the effort to be attend. We then went to dinner afterwards with the Thomas family. We enjoyed our time visiting with them all. We had a full day. We wanted to go to Tuesday night discount night but I was to tired by the end of the day. The late showing at 10:20 pm and I couldn’t make it- I fell asleep on the couch. Miss Laura a darling preschool teacher with Tucker Olsen and Cora Rose - Tucker is best friends with Cora they are neighbors and love to play together- Our adorable Cora Rose 5 years old at her Preschool graduation June 3 2025- Tucker and Cora - such a darling picture-Cora with her Mom and Dad - grandpa and Grammy so proud of our little Cora- this is our youngest grandchild out of our 20 grandchildren.- I did not want to miss this event - so glad we were able to rearrange our last minute schedule to attend!

Uncle Gaylon’s Funeral

I woke up early at 5:30 AM to get a Headstart on the day. I got myself ready and watered my plants and we were out the door by 7:30 AM to drive to Ogden to attend uncle Gaylon‘s funeral. It was Craig‘s favorite Symes uncle. He lived to 89 years old, he had prostate cancer and had just finished his last chemo treatment. He did not do well. It was really hard on him. He had lost all his hair. So sad he had to suffer in those latter a few weeks of his life. Cancer treatments are rough. It was a lovely funeral. It was fun to see all the Symes relatives. Buck Karlee and Boston arrived last night. They are staying for the week. The weather is so lovely again this week. It has been unusually warm for Bear lake this time of year. The annoying nats that come out at night are already appearing. When we arrived home from the funeral we had to put all the screen back on our windows- it is warm inside and needing to air things out. Trisha called from St George saying it’s pouring rain down there. It’s lovely up north. Natasha texted this afternoon inviting us to our little Coco’s preschool graduations. It’s our last little granddaughter and I don’t want to miss it - so looks like I’m going to have to drive down tomorrow. We have our YSA weekly activity event tomorrow night so looks like I’m going to have to miss it. It is going to be a fun activity- summer Olympics game night- it was a lot of fun last year. I hate to miss it but can’t be in two places at one time especially with a 3 hour drive time.. I said I would make banana brownies so I’m gonna have to get those made tonight or in the morning before I can leave town. I still need to finish washing the inside windows in the basement. I didn’t get all the windows washed before our company arrived. I didn’t know they were coming early this week. They’re running in the half Bear Lake marathon this weekend which is 13 miles- Sadie and Trisha arrive on Wednesday evening with two of their guy friends to run in the race with them. They have all been training the past few months to get ready. It will be fun to cheer them on. The Summer season is here!

Our Sabbath Day

This has been a lovey Sabbath Day. The weather has been lovely this week and beautiful weekend- I was up at 7:30 am to get things ready for our break the fast dinner after our YSA fast and testimony meeting today. We are serving a pork bowl with cut up vegetables. I cut up lots of carrots, zucchini, cabbage and edamame beans. Sweet and sour sauces- I made two large cookie sheet of brownies, we have two large pans of pasta from our weekly activity- it kept me busy in the kitchen till 1:30 pm- I then went and picked wildflowers- for our table centerpieces- and made pretty flower arrangements- I was able to get ready on time by 3:30 pm I had to pack up the car and out the door to set up early before for 5pm Come follow me lesson time- our sacrament meeting at 6pm- we had 77 last week and this week we have 91 in attendance- it a big group!! We should have enough food- It has been an all day progress for me getting things ready- love hearing the YSA sharing their testimonies- fun to see this faces I meet last summer and meeting many more new YSA members this summer-

Our Elder quorum 1st and 2nd counselors were sustained to today- Corbin Moldenhauer, John Scott, and Kyle Cazier is still serving as our elder quorum President -

testimonies - Ethan Peterson- Conner Wray- Kambrea- kit andrson our stake high councilman- sister, Modoc Earley, Barodon Snow, Corbin, Maya, Brie, Jon Scott, elder missionaries Crouthet, three new sisters- working at Zios- brother Rasmussen conducting, Emily conducting the music-