Recovery Process

It’s been a over month now since this illness attacked me in a weaken state.  I woke up for the first time today feeling like I needed to feed my spirit by reading our Come Follow Me lesson for this week studying sections 85-87 of the doctrine covenants. The lesson is about standing in holy places and receiving personal revelations in our own lives.  So very needed as I’m struggling to figure out how to Survive in a world that is spinning out of control on every front.  I read for a bit and would like to take the time to share my thoughts as I dig in and study more. I took my vitamin supplements and now going on a walk.  Looking for the joy in life. I have been physically and emotionally beaten down.  Trying to pull myself out the abyss of fear from this illness and doubting my own judgement.  It has been very troubling to me.  I felt I prayed and got an answer to not take this experimental vaccine.  We needed to wait.  The confusion and pressures from  our American President pushing it on every American, many In our LDS culture saying you're not following the Prophet if I don’t receive this- again as a reminder this is an experimental shot-  it has been authorized for emergency use only.  I know the prophet is a doctor, very trained- who is now 95 years of age.  He showed his support to this experimental drug because it was first being called needed to save lives for the elderly.  The elderly were the most effective by this virus.  The young and healthy have mild symptoms, it is not killing them or causing death.  I’m asking myself why do the young need this shot? It makes no sense to me.  What is the science to support it?  Is safe?  That we are not being told by those we are suppose to trust.   So how do we make a wise decision when we are not presented supporting research?  It is called an experimental drug.  We are 6 months out since the beginning doses administered- first to the elderly and essential workers in the medical field. When reports show that 40% of the essential workers, many in the medical field choses not to receive the vaccine.  I felt the still small voice tell me to wait and watch.  There is no hurry.  This vaccine campaign has gone from saving the elderly to now everyone ages 12 and up needs to receive this vaccine.  Our government is not taking into account the herd immunity- millions that have already contracted the virus, they have survived and now have natural antibodies as a defense.  So why would you still need the vaccine ?  The news media’s and local officials are all pushing everyone to receive the jab - “is what they are calling it now.”   The old and the young.  I feel things are spinning out of control. Our alienable rights for Freedom are being taking away.  The government is now pushing for everyone to have an electronic passport on their phone showing they have received the required doses of this experimental vaccine.  New York City just passed this last week- mandatory to enter restaurants, gyms and many other establishments. Many are making it required for employment or even shopping for food and clothes.   This list is growing to force people to receive this vaccination. If you refuse then you can’t participate in the things we have been free to do-living in America the land of the free.  Our Freedoms are being taking away.  This is a bigger issue than just the vaccination.  

I was able to walk a mile and a half today.  We walked up to the canal and back.